A Safe and Happy Fourth of July to everyone!


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You Communicate With Your Ears
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I do not know how to describe  this moment..

I am not sad, just deep in thought.

I do not feel like I am being honest with myself and I am feeling really alone.

There is a quote I keep reading  that I took from the book Memoirs of a Geisha that says:

"Grief is a most peculiar thing; we're so helpless in the face of it.  It's like a window that will ( Read more... )

There is this guy who use to work for the company   were I was a vendor for over 6 years.  He use to call and ask me to have lunch or what ever  with him almost daily.

He was fired from the company and yet still called me no matter how many times I have asked him to stop.  I do not answer the phone when he calls anymore.  I have not for over 2 ( Read more... )

Another year older... Another year wiser?

In earlier years in my life my birthday was always plauged by bad memories.

Last year for my birthday I did something so many in my life found to be odd.  I took care of me.

After over 8 months of sitting in my room paralyzed by grief and disbelief, I went to see a grief counselor and spent the day with my ( Read more... )

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If you wait for me
Then I'll come for you
Although I've travelled far
I always hold a place for you
In my heart

If you think of me
If you miss me once in a while
Then I'll return to you
I'll return and fill that space in your heart

Chorus-
Remembering your touch
Your kiss
Your warm embrace
I'll find my way
Back to you
If you'll be waiting

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So, Karma bit me in the ass last night...

The last couple of weeks have been crazy for me with my little cousins wedding (she's really 21), starting a new job and being  really sick for over a week.  I have not been able to spend anytime with the loves of my life the " Monster " and her "Big Brooder" ages almost 4 and 9 so I decided yesterday was ( Read more... )

It's almost 5 am Saturday morning and I am up writing ( Read more... )

Lack of communication that should sum it up...

I have not been able to write or speak much it seems the last couple of weeks. I've been going through a major "down" time.

I've been trying to remind myself to just breath sometimes.   I notice how much I have been holding my breath when I just need to exhale.

This all seemed to come to surface when ( Read more... )