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Another year older... Another year wiser?
In earlier years in my life my birthday was always plauged by bad memories.
Last year for my birthday I did something so many in my life found to be odd. I took care of me.
After over 8 months of sitting in my room paralyzed by grief and disbelief, I went to see a grief counselor and spent the day with my best friend Jeff looking at condos and houses. Last year he was about the only person I could handle being around here because he was present in my life and and did not turn his back on me even though he had never been through a loss process or witnessed someone completely shutting down. He is tough sometimes but what I love about him is he always tells me the truth. He does not sugar coat anything. He is one besides a handfull of out of town others I could not of made it through last year without. As we sat talking the other night I acknowleged that over a year and a half of my life is now gone.
Am I any wiser for it? I think there were/are lessons I am still learning.
Could I have changed what happened last year? Maybe not changed, but I have learned from it despite what anyone else sees or thinks.
I guess there are somethings in my life that come up so they can be release, reexamined or relearned?