Why must I hide? Why is this charade continuing on? Doesn't anyone see through it yet? Oh Wait, every has the same ambiance and character to them - so why would they need to see, they already know! They don't need to see, they already know. They don't need the simple broechure of life, they already have one to ignore, why complicate life more with ( Read more... )

I am not sure how I wish to put this. Abused? Tortured? None of those even compare to how I feel at this moment. Even all the love in the world could not hide or make this look any better. This feeling that takes everything in me and dissolves the very substance and strength that I live on. It destroys the ver essence of who I truly am or wish to ( Read more... )

Some realizations about me ( Read more... )

The shocking truth revealed! (well I guess its not really shocking ( Read more... )

I finally found BILLO!!! Haha .. none of you understand what I am talking about .. but yeah .. I found my best friend that I haven't seen in two fuckin years! I am lovin' the old times and the new all over again. This guy Billo is freakin' awesome .. I love you dude ( Read more... )

Dear Dad ( Read more... )

[_] smoked pot ( Read more... )

I turned on the headlights to see in the dark, but all I got was 2 feet in front of me. My heart is pounding faster and I can't see straight. As if the darkness won't let me escape to see what lies in front of me. The dark keeps me at bay, repressing, pounding, and pushing me back. OoOps .. uh .. ahhh! Grr .. I tripped and fell again. I seem to be ( Read more... )

Today sucked .. My boss came in and chewed me out because he thought I wasn't doing my job right .. yet for some reason my other supervisor can only find good things to say about me ..? **confused look** yeah .. me too. Anyhow, on the brighter side of life ... ITS RAINING!!!! I absolutely love rain .. it makes me feel all warm inside and cuddley. ( Read more... )

Has anyone ever wondered what love actually looks like, feels like, or tastes like? Some say its sex, others say its a feeling, still others head knowledge about that other person. What would you say? For me love is tainted, love is blind, love is everything denied, love is knowledge, love is a feeling, love is memories, love is time, love doesn't ( Read more... )