you tell yourself that it oculd happen that it is possible and not to let it go then you see something like what i saw tongith and you get that feeling in your stomach that feeling of wow this hurts really bad and you hoped it wouldnt buit it does then you end up like how i am right now tears rolling down my face me telling my self i am an idiot ( Read more... )

i have every intention of letting myself change to be a better person, and i plan on doing that, but i odnt make miricles and i am not God so it will take me a litle bit longer... these past few weeks i have felt like i for once in my life have friends that i can depend on (jenn christie emily nikki ) and i love it dearly it makes me so happy to be ( Read more... )

last fall during soccer i went through some pretty tough times and wrote in my lj about then everyday practicly so for all i know everyone prolly know about them ( Read more... )

i think that this was a cool idea i stole from christie and kerrie .... ask me three questions they can be anything, about anythign, asking anythign, even embarassing stuff just ask.. then i will go into your journal and post the answers.. so have fun with this..but not to much lol...

wow i have been so happy lately its crazy...

lets see in the past week i have went to trl , whic was great except for the fact tthat i looked stupid on tv, but to all you people that werent there i didnt know to put my hand out till when he walked by so then by the time i did it i was to late and loked stupid but what you dont see is that during ( Read more... )

my band my band my band my band my band my band my band MY BAND!!!!!!!

when was i really happy cuz i don't remeber??

i see you like everyday juts about and i never talk to you,are you avoiding me or do i just not have the balls to come up anmd talk to you...???

i see you talking to so many other girls yet i still like you i dont know why but i do and everyday it gets harder and harder and i feel worse and worse...

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and i'm gonna keep on loving you becuz its the only thing i wanna do...i don't want to sleep i just want to keep on loving you..

my dreams were crushed when my alarm went off this morning...

is being good at something to much to ask cuz i mean cureing cancer ok thats a lil much and world peace ok thats a lil out there to, but all i want is to ( Read more... )

i am in the greatest mood and i dont know why my life is such a mess and i dont care anymore,,,,.. these next few weeks are going to be great and no one i repeat no one will bring me down ( Read more... )

1.) What's your name? allison

2.) Middle name? meghan

4.) Nickname? alli

5.) Age? 16 1/2

6.) Sex/Gender? female

7.) Birthday? septemebr 8, 1987

8.) Your sign? virgo

9.) Where do you live? Chicopee

10.) Do you have a boyfriend? nope o well

11.) Have you ever been in love? whats that

12.) What's your favorite color(s)? pink and biege and green and blue

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