well, that's that

[onnas_baka_gaki]

I guess I should have updated here that the hormone therapy has really been helping me and I'm feeling much better.

Sleeping patterns are almost back to normal - yay! Not so tired - yay! Staying awake until time for bed - yay! Working on things at night and not passing out - yay!

But since I didn't give an update here, it has caused me to be removed

Comments

[rorekgwolfe]

That has to be incredibly frustrating. :( Why don't you feel welcome at the regular meetups? I get the impression you're a total sweetheart, so I can't imagine why you'd be unwelcome.

[onnas_baka_gaki]

You're so sweet to think that but I'm a bitch at heart.

Some things were hashed out on the phone this morning - we're all over-extended, unhealthy and stressed and we're all worried about each others' health. That's what happens when the strongest people of the local doll community all have chronic medical issues.

Dolls provide comfort when things are not the best.

I'm going to Scarborough on Sunday for a Mother's Day dolly tea party and to fill the shopping list of stuff my mother has told us to purchase for her.

[kerikochan]

I think everyone goes through times of not feeling 100% welcome; add to that chronic health problems that, no matter how accustomed to having them you are, can be incredibly frustrating. I know I got out of the doll scene for a bit due to those feelings (and being busy).

I always saw you as incredibly strong and, when it comes to dolls, one of the most knowledgeable people (without being condescending) I know. I love having you at meet ups! I wish I could make more of them actually, hopefully after graduation I can get back into it.

[onnas_baka_gaki]

Thanks, K!

Things have been worked out, with a phone call and reality checks for everyone all around. Basically we are all trying too hard to do too much the first year. I hope people will see all the hard work put into what will be offered this year and will understand a full-blown doll con like Austin or SoCal was not possible our 'virgin' year.

I have REALLY missed you, K! You're a breath of fresh air when I see you, because I don't see you as often as I used to. And you were one of my angels during the move.

[kerikochan]

*hugs* I miss you too! You're like one of the main reasons I go to meet ups. I would help you move again ANY TIME!! Next time I'm at David's (my beau who lives right by Richardson) I should see if you're available for some hang out time!

I plan on going to the A-kon doll con thing, I have a GREAT idea planned for the fashion/costume contest. Lets just say that I plan to be an accessory for my doll. ^^

Yea putting on a con is super stressful, tensions stretched, and egos have to be put in place. Probably why I've never entertained the idea of holding any sort of position of power at any con. ^0^

[onnas_baka_gaki]

Agreed about a position of power at a con! When this idea first came up around Christmas and some people said I should be the one to run it, I quickly and adamantly squashed that idea in the bud, knowing the amount of work it would take. I was teaching in the Spring and needed to concentrate on my students, too.

If David is in Richardson, MINI-MEET TIME! You haven't seen my new Bambicrony Kumi elves yet. Actually, no one has seen my latest Kumi yet!

[starshipangels]

I'm so glad to hear you're feeling better Onna.

I felt like you do. My reasons are totally different ^^; people wouldn't talk to me or if I approached them well they answered totally bitchy. Why act like that? if you don't like new people... I wish they simply practice being polite.

At least to me you seem to be a sweet person :)

[onnas_baka_gaki]

It's really not about not being talked to - it's a lot more complicated than that. We are all STILL friends and still talk and we had a nice long phone conversation the next morning.

The con has also gone through a large reality check since the phone call and everyone is pulling back because most of us organizers/panelists suffer with chronic illnesses/issues. I made the joke we needed to rent a bunch of wheelchairs to line one wall of the panel room in case we all need them at the same time!

[starshipangels]

XD that would be funny to see a line of wheelchairs in waiting!

[onnas_baka_gaki]

And large pockets for dolls to ride along!

[isparkle4meandu]

awwwww, Onna, I wish I could afford to go. I'd LOVE to hang out with you and (big)Shuichi and (big)Yuki and Tatsuha and Ryuichi and take pics.

Honestly, I think that you should go and ignore it when the others treat you like you're break, and instead show them how much better you're feeling. But then again, that's me.

Ryuichi

[onnas_baka_gaki]

I am SO much better now that it's like night and day.

I really need to get the rest of the brats home with me but I haven't had the energy to get any boxes unpacked. rat and I keep talking about it but we come home and immediately become lumps in front of the computers. LOL!