well, that's that
I guess I should have updated here that the hormone therapy has really been helping me and I'm feeling much better.
Sleeping patterns are almost back to normal - yay! Not so tired - yay! Staying awake until time for bed - yay! Working on things at night and not passing out - yay!
But since I didn't give an update here, it has caused me to be removed (via email) from participating in DollAKon, taking my original request in March and making it retroactive. I have given the impression my health is only getting worse, which it WAS but now it's better. Hormones are my friend!
I spent the day today at homeworking on Powerpoint stuff for it and didn't fall asleep once - a miracle!
I had hoped to do some tiny wiring at the DollAKon workmeet because I'm feeling better and suggested it today. That's probably the straw that broke the camel's back.
I know how to monitor my energy levels and I watch myself all the time. That's why I got the hotel room - to insure I would recharge when needed so I could give a tiptop performance at the con.
I'm not jumping out and running a marathon yet (or ever - I don't run anymore!) but I'm looking at my exercise equipment and plan on starting up slow again.
Well, that's the end of that, since no one called me to check how I'm doing today and I know I won't get a chance to prove myself otherwise. I won't be allowed to fight the decision by proving I'm getting better every single day and that I will be able to handle my responsibilities. It has been taken out of my hands.
I know it's partly my fault for whining about my health -sometimes you have to vent that frustration. But it put a bullet through my brain in the end.
A lot of us have bad health, including the head coordinator. I'm worried more about her health than me! They're afraid of me collapsing at AKon when in fact KyKy is a more likely candidate with her current health issues and all the stresses dealing with the organization. I am REALLY worried about her!
And I now have nothing to look forward to at Akon, either. I currently do not feel welcome at the doll events (that may change) and the people who are not in the know will be asking me questions I will not be inclined to answer. Unless things change, I better stay away from the doll area completely.
Maybe the academia folks need an extra body for their panels but they usually don't at Akon.
And now I will be treated like I am a cracked egg needing coddling even at regular meetups. I really do not like being coddled.
I need to stop chewing on this - it's a done deal in their heads so what's the point anymore? Moot, moot, moot.
Sleeping patterns are almost back to normal - yay! Not so tired - yay! Staying awake until time for bed - yay! Working on things at night and not passing out - yay!
But since I didn't give an update here, it has caused me to be removed (via email) from participating in DollAKon, taking my original request in March and making it retroactive. I have given the impression my health is only getting worse, which it WAS but now it's better. Hormones are my friend!
I spent the day today at homeworking on Powerpoint stuff for it and didn't fall asleep once - a miracle!
I had hoped to do some tiny wiring at the DollAKon workmeet because I'm feeling better and suggested it today. That's probably the straw that broke the camel's back.
I know how to monitor my energy levels and I watch myself all the time. That's why I got the hotel room - to insure I would recharge when needed so I could give a tiptop performance at the con.
I'm not jumping out and running a marathon yet (or ever - I don't run anymore!) but I'm looking at my exercise equipment and plan on starting up slow again.
Well, that's the end of that, since no one called me to check how I'm doing today and I know I won't get a chance to prove myself otherwise. I won't be allowed to fight the decision by proving I'm getting better every single day and that I will be able to handle my responsibilities. It has been taken out of my hands.
I know it's partly my fault for whining about my health -sometimes you have to vent that frustration. But it put a bullet through my brain in the end.
A lot of us have bad health, including the head coordinator. I'm worried more about her health than me! They're afraid of me collapsing at AKon when in fact KyKy is a more likely candidate with her current health issues and all the stresses dealing with the organization. I am REALLY worried about her!
And I now have nothing to look forward to at Akon, either. I currently do not feel welcome at the doll events (that may change) and the people who are not in the know will be asking me questions I will not be inclined to answer. Unless things change, I better stay away from the doll area completely.
Maybe the academia folks need an extra body for their panels but they usually don't at Akon.
And now I will be treated like I am a cracked egg needing coddling even at regular meetups. I really do not like being coddled.
I need to stop chewing on this - it's a done deal in their heads so what's the point anymore? Moot, moot, moot.