I'm a Total Fuck Up

[oneirocritical]

She left. She claims it was to save the relationship, to get us into a better place, better jobs. She hasn't talked to me since

Comments

[orpheuskiss]

I'm so sorry about how badly this went :( I don't think anything is wrong with you. Everybody makes mistakes. You could always try to think of it as "another fucking opportunity for growth" and you can take steps to ensure that this is the last in the series by breaking the pattern. *hug*

I do think that giving yourself a set amount of time before dating again would be a wise idea (and would alleviate any desperation while you get over the end of this relationship because you'd be choosing not to date). I did that when I broke up with G and wound up dating Ren once my self-imposed celibacy was over. I'm convinced that time is what helped me get my head on straight to be ready for my current relationship. If you take some time to get comfortable being alone again while figuring out exactly what you want and what behaviors you will not tolerate it'll probably help you avoid this (or at least get yourself out sooner if it happens again) in your next relationship.

[khep]

Maybe how she left was a blessing; this way, should a nostalgic moment happen in the future, you need only remember how she left to sober up. I am so sorry. I wish I were there to help you through this.

[spiralwitch]

*hugs*
you're not desperate...everyone wants to be loved. and you will be. you'll find her.

[velveteenviolet]

To paraphrase Morrissey, you're human and you need to be loved, just like everybody else does. Live and learn, right?