I started to look at my User Info. My 16 year old self could not spell. I can't seem to figure out how to change the quote next to my name. I spelled 'consistency' wrong too. Well at least I was consistent ( Read more... )

Reading back through my journal.My physical and online journal. God I hope nobody ever reads them both. I tend to only write in my journal when my thoughts/emotions get too much for the thin membrans of my skin to contain. Largest organ of the body.....psssh. I've commented on that before. Now though I feel fine,I'm good. Just restless. As usual. I ( Read more... )

I am a fail.

"Sagittarius, yours is the sign of new horizons. It's possible that the changes you've been going through lately aren't completely finished. You may even have a hard time keeping yourself from running away from it all. Your rebirth will only be complete after you clearly define your desires. Use today to think about what you want. Things aren't ( Read more... )

Writing a book. We'll see how this goes now.

In me the scientist ( Read more... )

Self inflicted suffering. A very bad hangover. I am unhappy with getting so drunk and feel insecure and foolish the next day. It is not something I really did often before the break up and now I'm realising what I want and don't want. I know what happened is that I've started pre-drinking. Drinks before we go out but then drink when I go out as ( Read more... )

Today was a good and productive day, I pushed myself though and from the heat in my bedroom and my concentration on my drawing I came close to fainting before I took a few mins to break my concentrations and take some water. It was great to do so much though, to feel like I'm back on track. Working again. It feels good. So much to do. I'm hoping ( Read more... )

Today was a good day, despite everything I was a bit more energetic. Maybe it's because my chest is getting better so I feel alot better. Still sad and stuff but I feel a bit more free inside, my chest feels clearer. Being clogged up surely didn't help the oppressive weight. I look forward to more days like this and days better than this. I desire ( Read more... )

When will it all settle down inside me. When will I find peace in myself. Impatience is necessary now. I have started interjecting things into my mind when I find myself thinking. Songs, images etc I think too much and I have not achieved closure. I insist on strength now and will fake it if need be, I am fighting. But I am raging at myself for not ( Read more... )