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ma ma ma ma the way the dispenser cup on the change machine curves upwards under the lip to ease the removal of quarters. i suckadingdong singalong. <3 thoughts made shapes/thoughtfullness shaped/shape thoughted

keeping a bananna in your backpack is a BAD idea.

so much piano. You know you've been practicing too long when you start to hear glenn gould humming along with your playing. my neurological problems manifest in interesting ways when I focus on something for six hours. it's always fun when the notes of the piece I'm working on begin to have opinions of eachother and the whole thing turns into a ( Read more... )

I feel awfully liberated today after Sherri's acting class. Alina noted how different I sounded afterwards in contrast to last night when I spoke to her feeling miserable and anxious. I think my whole person changes when I'm under pressure. And I find myself in situations where I'm in a state of dread or totally stressed out all the time. Just ( Read more... )

I took my first interterm class today, an improv workshop. It turns out we're doing heavy stuff life recreating moments of high emotion from our own lives on stage. I know you have to do that shit every once and a while in theatre and it always sucks but come on, nobody told me this class was going to be like that when I signed up for it! Now I'm ( Read more... )

"I kind of hate to go into hoohoo land, but when it comes to being friends with people, or falling in love or doing a good job at anything, etiquette and good-friendsmanship can only take you so far.There is a little spark, a little something, in the absence of which the world is just no good. I see it all the time when I'm taking care of Ava. she' ( Read more... )

this is the most depressed I've been in a really long time. it can't just be alina. I'm crying into my soup.

learning music is so frustrating. trying to focus is like trying to quell some rabid grizzly bear into playing dead. ADD meds make me insane. I have to tame this beast on my own? I need to figure out how to learn pieces faster. This Handel is so beautiful and so difficult. I feel incompetent until I have everything in muscle memory. Today while I ( Read more... )

today was class registration. bureaucratic carbon copy nightmare. so many lines. my schedule is packed this semester. I got out of my mandatory playreading class to take the Bach intensive with Alan Vogel. Alan is an oboist for the los angeles chamber orchestra and a truly lovely guy. It seems that we share the same total devotion to JSB. This is ( Read more... )