Lost in My Thoughts

[omdaheemo]

This is part of an email I sent to Renee a few days ago. Figure that since my life is so "public" with my friends, I should at least let you know what's going on in my head

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[tristemort]

hæ, your quote reminded me of this poem that used to be my favourite, i still love it though, anyhow here it is, it's from the 'archy & mehitabel' series by don marquis

More to live for.

[spunnout]

Andrew there was a time when you had direction. There was a time when you cared. There was a time you knew you were doing something right in this world. I could ask what happened but then again I was there and I know what happened. But then I again I don't know what happened. I know you lost your Love. I know you were betrayed. (kurt) But what I can't understand is what happened in your heart. You were the one that led me to have the ONLY experience I have had with God. I don't think you really understand what I'm talking about. You know my past with 'pastor' in church so you know how I never really gave god or church room in my life. It was you that convinced me to give God a chance and during that time I had the most amazing expierience I have had encountered with God. It is that experience that has kept me holding on even though things don't always go well. I wish you could find that passion you use to have cause it was your passion that changed my life. I know shitty things have happened and I still don't know what to

More to live for...and then some

[omdaheemo]

My ass is straight, why else would I be with Renee...sheesh. Anyway, I never lost my love for God, at least not the God that I've always known to exist. Just my "love" for the church. It's wrong. I'm not going to enjoy being anywhere that tells me I'm going to hell, especially when they don't know me and I'm trying my hardest to "be 'Christian'", just so they can keep me in the building, giving money to their cause. Yes, I agree with tithing and offering, but there are more important things than that, like feeding people or clothing children, which our church (Victory) does not do. Most churches don't do that. Which is why the only REAL church I've ever been to was the one in Los Angeles, the LA International Church. They were what I envision a real "Christ loving" church to be; they are what Jesus was talking about. I've seen too much to be swayed by what pastors say, and I know what God tells me. If I didn't have God, I'd still have you, nick and renee to fall back on; but what would those relationships be without a relationship