Happy Birthday, Sammy! - a commentfic meme

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In honor of our dear Sammy’s 33rd birthday, we’re hosting a comment fic and art meme!

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[anonymous]

Sam opens a cursed box on his birthday. It activates a truth spell which dean takes advantage of. angsty sam guilty dean. Preferably in the bunker

FILLED: Somewhere Older Than I Was

[crowroad3]

Cursed: one cake.

It’s got sprinkles, and something that shines; crystals, edible stars.

Sorry, Sammy, Dean says, was the only one they had left.

The candles (33) are arson aboard a snowfield. Too much sugar and shortening. Dean’s eyes crinkle up, and Sam's seen, pre-thirty, pre-twenty probably, maybe too young to know there were monsters.

Blow.

Sam does.

*

There’s whiskey after, and the bunker’s warm library-light, optics and stars. Dean hands over a box, violet-wrapped and bow’d, some sort of retro department store-looking--

Dust-puff inside. Old book. Symbolled cover. Gold leaf and alchemy.

*

Three AM: Sam stumbles sinkward, pukes up cake, sweats out sugar, sweats out a fever in Dean’s bed while his brother mutters just--

Just spill it, Sammy. You’ll feel better.

He does:

I never wanted to come home, from Phoenix, from anywhere.

I wanted kids.

I remember everyone I hurt, soulless. Everyone I killed.

I still feel like a worthless piece of crap.

I’m still not pure. Never will be.
Attack of the shakes

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[crowroad3]

Glad you liked <3!

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[familybizness]

loooove it

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[crowroad3]

aw, thank you!

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[shangrilada]

This is simply beautiful.

RE: FILLED: Somewhere Older Than I Was

[crowroad3]

Thanks so much; am glad you enjoyed!

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[caranfindel]

{wraps my arms around this lovely little thing}

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[crowroad3]

*hugs*!

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[quickreaver]

HOLY CRAP, THIS WAS GOOD. I feel it hard, in my heart.

Gorgeous!

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[crowroad3]

Glad you got some feels from it ( ;!

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[madebyme_x]

So painful and beautiful and perfectly formed. Sam's confessions really hit hard and felt so true to his character.

Thank you for sharing this gorgeous hurty fic! Take care :)

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[crowroad3]

Am really glad you like the Sam-sads here, friend...! <3

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[cowboyguy]

Your stuff is so wonderfully poetic. I love it!

There’s whiskey after, and the bunker’s warm library-light, optics and stars.

This sentence makes me feel so very happy. Well done!

RE: FILLED: Somewhere Older Than I Was

[crowroad3]

I am so glad you enjoyed this! Just wanted to a catch as much of Bunker-atmosphere as I could in one-sentence, there. <3!