comment fic meme!

[mimblexwimble]

Following the results of the poll we took last month (don't make it easy on us or anything, guys, haha!), we've decided to hold a comment fic meme once every three months. This gives everyone time to write and prompt to their heart's content, and allows us mods to keep up with y'all. And we're starting right now!

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FILLED: Eternity, Sam, Dean, gen, warnings for insanity and self-harm, 1/?

[emmram]

(A/N: Entirely weird. Doesn't really conform to the prompt, but here's my take on it, for it's worth.)

Don’t worry about me, Dean.

-there’s an insect crawling across his arm. It’s a perfectly innocent feeling at first, so Sam just sits and lets it keep going (he’s going to flick it off, any moment now) and when it crawls up to the crook of his elbow, it begins to bite and it hurts, so maybe it’s time he does something (any moment now), and then it gouges and breaks the skin and crawls underneath, and Sam can feel the pressure and the warmth begin to well just where the insect has entered (any moment now, except he can’t move)-

Then the world begins to fall apart.

Large warm restraints clamp over his shoulders and bite into his upper arms, and everything tumbles and blurs into each other as he rocks back and forth. There’s noise and warmth in his ear, and the noise is terrible and goes on forever and ever and ever-“Saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa(focus on me, sam, he would say. i'm so sorry. and there would be pain-all the pain he could fit into

FILLED: Eternity, Sam, Dean, gen, warnings for insanity and self-harm, 2/3

[emmram]

Sam can’t eat anymore. Not normally, anyway-in those long interminable times he sits on his bed and watches Dean sleep (fitfully, lines of stress and pain bracketing his eyes), he feels whatever he’s eaten like a lump of rock sitting in the pit of his stomach. Sometimes he’s puking up whatever he’s eaten, Dean holding him so that he doesn’t face-plant into the toilet bowl. Sometimes he’s curled up on bed as every single organ in his body ties itself into knots and the whole world is nothing but the (blessed) pain and the sound of his heartbeat and the cool touch of Dean’s fingers across his forehead.

Dean’s worried about how thin he’s getting. He tries to find something that’ll agree with Sam’s stomach-tries everything from soup and salt crackers to protein shakes and glucose water. It’s not me, Sam tries to tell him. It’s the world. Everything’s wrong. Moves too fast or too slow(the only thing that makes sense any more is pain. it was the only thing he was willing to face for two hundred years

Re: FILLED: Eternity, Sam, Dean, gen, warnings for insanity and self-harm, 3/3

[emmram]

Dean hides the weapons from Sam now. He locks them in the trunk of the Impala and locks the door of the motel room when he’s sleeping, but for some reason, he never tries to snatch away the amulet. Sam doesn’t ask why. He’s just grateful

Re: FILLED: Eternity, Sam, Dean, gen, warnings for insanity and self-harm, 3/3

[kettle_o_fish]

*wibbles* I loved your narration. I really felt Sam's disorientation. Poor bb.

...and Sam feels its absence like Dean just ripped something vital out of his body (and Sam thinks, he’s not even using rhetoric, here; he knows exactly how it feels, and the thought makes him want to laugh).

Broke me. BROKE. ME. (In a good way.)

Re: FILLED: Eternity, Sam, Dean, gen, warnings for insanity and self-harm, 3/3

[emmram]

Thank you! I was worried that, in trying to get into Sam's head, I'd only ended up being incomprehensible, so I'm glad it worked for you. :)

Re: FILLED: Eternity, Sam, Dean, gen, warnings for insanity and self-harm, 3/3

[de_nugis]

Oh, that was utterly gorgeous. I love the way you link pain and the passage or non-passage of time, because that is one of the psychological effects of torture, and it makes so much sense here. I love Sam's point of view, and Dean finding a way, however imperfect and full of damage, to ground him. Brava!

Re: FILLED: Eternity, Sam, Dean, gen, warnings for insanity and self-harm, 3/3

[emmram]

Thank you so much! To be honest, I spent ages asking myself the question, "How, exactly, is the Cage 'timeless'?" And this was what I came up with.

Thanks again for the prompt and the comment!

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[quickreaver]

“Breathe with me,” Dean says. “Try and sleep.”

Just this. So good.

Re: FILLED: Eternity, Sam, Dean, gen, warnings for insanity and self-harm, 3/3

[emmram]

Thank you!

Re: FILLED: Eternity, Sam, Dean, gen, warnings for insanity and self-harm, 3/3

[brokenangel6662]

Best. Thing. Ever.

"Dean keeps the steady pressure on the knife and Sam falls to the lull of Dean's life in his ears and the pain."

You can tell it kills Dean to hurt his brother, but he gives in because it seems to help at least a bit. Always love that borderline-psychotic codependency that defines these two. Really wonderful.

Re: FILLED: Eternity, Sam, Dean, gen, warnings for insanity and self-harm, 3/3

[emmram]

borderline-psychotic codependency that defines these two

Doesn't it, though? The fic wasn't going to end in any other way, at least in my head.

I'm glad you enjoyed this; thanks for reading!

Re: FILLED: Eternity, Sam, Dean, gen, warnings for insanity and self-harm, 3/3

[vail_kagami]

When I read the prompt I thought "I bet emmram could do something wonderful with this!" And I was right. Fantastic and hearbreaking and strange.

Re: FILLED: Eternity, Sam, Dean, gen, warnings for insanity and self-harm, 3/3

[emmram]

Hee! Your comment fills me with twenty-five different kinds of delight. :D

SO glad you liked this. Thanks so much! ♥

Re: FILLED: Eternity, Sam, Dean, gen, warnings for insanity and self-harm, 3/3

[monicawoe]

oof.
an excellent fill. This reads like poetry!

Re: FILLED: Eternity, Sam, Dean, gen, warnings for insanity and self-harm, 3/3

[emmram]

Thank you! :D

Re: FILLED: Eternity, Sam, Dean, gen, warnings for insanity and self-harm, 3/3

[dollarformyname]

This is amazing. Horrific and amazing.