"The darkest night is often the bridge to the brightest tomorrow."
                                                                                                      - Jonathan Lockwood Huie

I've been feeling blue today. Waking up on the wrong side of the bed is a killer ( Read more... )

I feel like dance is something I had and then lost. Every single time I'm exposed to dancing, dancers, music, tumbling, gymnastics -- the list goes on -- I feel like a different person. It makes me want to be better. Stronger. It also kind of makes me a little sad. I was a great athlete when I was younger. I had a natural ability for dance and ( Read more... )

I think it's crazy how fast emotions can take over and squeeze the life out of you. I guess my recent obsession with roller coasters was a literal warm-up for this winter. I'm up and down so much that I can't even start to tell you what's going on. I have such a love for life but a distain for my own... sometimes. I love and hate virtually ( Read more... )

... tell them what I hoped would be impossible.

It's nice to have your faith restored.

Sometimes we let fear take over when all we need to do is stand up taller and push it back. We're stronger together than divided. 

I will not use food as an emotional filler. 
I will not ignore life to be lazy. 
I will not push myself to anger. 
I will watch what I say and think hard before it leaves my mouth.
I will think of myself without being selfish.
I will listen to music.
I will keep a physical journal. 
I will put God and love and happiness before everything else.

If there is anything I learned in 2008, it's that fixating and depending on one thing isn't healthy. Things don't always work out the way we want them to. Sometimes we lose something important. Sometimes we're wrong about when or why or how things are going to take place. To put all of your eggs in one basket is ridiculous, no matter how sure you ( Read more... )

People are out of control. They want to complain about hate but when it's very clear that hate isn't in the picture, they ignore that and decide to redefine the word. They want to complain about not having equal opportunities, but when it's clear that they have just as many opportunities as the next kid, they decide to go back to the hate thing. ( Read more... )

My life has been a roller coaster lately. I'm either up or down. I've developed an insane amount of patience in the past few weeks. It comes across as kindness and it does feel good to have that kind of control over my temper, but I question where it's coming from. Have I lost my fire? Have I lost my ability to be passionate? I hope not. On the ( Read more... )

I've never felt so terrified to be in my own skin. I want to write myself hate mail. I hate myself. I hate the way I look. I'm starting to feel a horrible amount of jealousy for anybody that isn't me. And that leads to hating them for having what I don't. I don't even know what to do with those feelings. I just think I'll hide myself away so nobody ( Read more... )