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After a couple of months of debating, Lightning in a Bottle tickets went on sale yesterday and I bought one. I am anxious about going because this will be the first event I go to completely alone. I've always had Will to pool resources with and for guidence and because of this, I am afraid of going alone. But for the same reason, I know that ( Read more... ) -
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I've gained weight. I can't describe how I feel. I'm barely surviving. -
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I didn't tell anyone I was going to Santa Fe to kill myself. I figured it was more information than people needed, plus it might interfere with my travel plans if anyone found out the truth. People always mean well, but they don't understand that when you're seriously depressed, suicidal ideation can be the only thing that keeps you alive. Just ( Read more... ) -
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I wake up and getting out of bed is a chore. I drink a cup of coffee, mostly out of habit. I don't shower because it takes too much effort. I'm in California now but nothing is different. I don't really even get dressed. What is the point? Everything takes too much effort. It's been this way for so long, I wonder if I could recognize ( Read more... ) -
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I can no longer take pleasure in simple things. I can't even get out of bed. I feel unfilled and I guilty for wasting my days and my life the way that I am but I have no will to do anything. Nothing makes me happy anymore. I envy those who can actually do anything because right now I feel paralyzed. -
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I can't even write because I can't put what I want to say into words. I wouldn't wish this upon anyone. -
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HALLOWEEN PARTY THIS FRIDAY ( Read more... ) -
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