my seams, they are infirm.

this is harder than it should be because ive never made my house a home. i move from one brittle carapace to the next as i feel im out growing them and never settle, ive never settled. now hes here but far and im homesick again. and i know now i need to make this a hospitable place for one. it has always been a hard cold place when im sleeping ( Read more... )

after 1 am and i dont feel like sleeping. you were warm and accepting. you were vivid and enlightening, velvet, engaging. the way you stared as i walked away after only one glass. i love you red wine. we held hands in a dream that i dont want to wake up from.

ah hello again live journal it has been a while, hasnt it? well i felt like visiting the desert, leaving some mementos for no one before going back to the sea i pretend to be sailing so well. since weve last stared at each other blankly i have ( Read more... )

new song just to get me through the night ( Read more... )

its something ive been occupied with for too long ( Read more... )

now that youre dead im trying to recall a day, with clarity and conviction, spin it into a story, and give it meaning. like the night you and i got high behind the church near my apartment. paranoid and cold. we walked home stoned, laughing at everything, thinking of nothing, the typical things you do when you do the typical things. you werent ( Read more... )

saw pixies play last night, and it was a fucken blast. kim deal was shiny and pretty, and the thrills put me to sleep and the killers made me dance and then the pixies made all the ego battling going on in the crowd, seem far away. they still sound so fucking good. bought some kids some beers and they had the nerve to bitch about not getting the ( Read more... )

no more stupid quizzes. journal boring ( Read more... )

shes suspended from hooks again ( Read more... )