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Sep 20, 2013 23:04

So. I just finished my second internship. It's been a while since I had a chance to properly write down what's going on, and I think I need a true let-it-out post. I don't think things have ever been quite this bad, ever before. Everything's going wrong. Every piece of news is bad news. I don't understand why happening, or what's going on. I'm just ( Read more... )

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nemophilist September 20 2013, 16:07:10 UTC

I've been in a very similar suggestion and I think you should try and find new room mates. It's a bit daunting moving in with people you don't know, but it could work out great, and there's no point moving in with someone you already know you don't like.

I'm so sorry about your family's health problems. I hope they feel better!

obsessionality September 21 2013, 04:05:11 UTC

Yeah. God. I really hope it works out. It's such short notice, and I feel so bloody panicked because if this had happened a month ago, I could have sorted it out easily, right? But no, I'm flying at the end of the month I'm not sure how the fuck I'm going to handle this. Thanks, babe. I hope so too.

nemophilist September 21 2013, 12:41:49 UTC

I've sorted out housing situations in less time. Just take a breath and spend a day figuring it out and you'll be grand! :)

voodoohedghog September 20 2013, 18:09:25 UTC

Oh god. Wow. You do have a lot going on. All I can day is, keep your friends close and your family closer. Is there a way you can be with your dad and help him in India? It sounds like he needs support.

Who is your best friend right now? To have a good friend - be a good friend (I know people have turned on you, but it is because they don't see that). Maybe there is someone right now that is just waiting for your phone call or email. Waiting for the opportunity to make things right or build something new. You never know until you reach out, with love.

Advice, if you want it...from someone who doesn't and can't know you or the "whole story": (so as it is:) Stay in law school and keep working toward your degree...you are in a great position there...but if I were you, I'd put your dad first and career/jobs last. Studies can always be stopped and restarted, money can always be made and lost and remade again, but time can never be reclaimed.

*hugs*

obsessionality September 21 2013, 06:06:57 UTC

Yeah. I really do want to help my dad, but that's the problem. He's a very... He's not a very open man. I know he loves me to bits, but there's times when I think no matter what I do, he doesn't know that I love him too. He thinks the worst of everyone and everything, and treats every support with suspicion. The only person he's willing to talk to is my mum, and he doesn't want us to do anything. He doesn't even want us to know, like he wants us to make like everything's okay. So I'm keeping my mouth shut, and being a normal and not burdening him with any of my problems, and I'm so confused. Our family has never been very open. It's tough to talk about problems ( ... )

voodoohedghog September 24 2013, 00:27:39 UTC

erghhh Yes the problem is with parents is that they can be difficult to help. It's a billion times easier to help a stranger sometimes. My MIL is kinda impossible like this....I mean she's poor and starving and her teeth are falling out. And you'd think we could help her. But it's complicated......argh. I empathize.

Yay! Keep the good friends :D

*hugs*