i just got home from saying goodbye to Breezy.
shes going to idaho for 2 months.
i never realized how much i am gonna miss her till tonight.
i was saying goodbye and we both just started crying
and then i couldn't stop crying.
 im extremely sad.
wow.
im going to miss that girl.  
i love her so much.
oh goodness... i dont like this.

2 months is a long time.

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"im a mouse.. duh!"


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drama drama drama
personally i think its kinda funny.
people just freak out,
spread rumors,
and assume.
really, come on now.

lol but oh well.
not my problem.
:)

umm... i went shopping today.
i got a really cute halter
and some cute shoes to go with it.
and im going back later today too with breezy
i love her lots.  she makes me smile.
so that should be fun.

mmk ( Read more... )

how to make her smile

play with her hair
don't tell her she's hot.  tell her she's beautiful... and mean it.
listen to her
when she's sad stay on the phone with her until she falls asleep 
be there for her... no matter what
tell your friends about her
kiss her on the forehead
...and the cheek
hold her hand whenever possible
pick her up, even though she will ( Read more... )

i wonder sometimes...
was i just a little game?
were you screwing with my head?
seriously. just tell me. make it all clear.

i wonder too...
how do you expect a friendship to last like this?
its funny,
im always here for you. 
you call me crying, i come comfort you.
but when the table turns and its me who needs you,
it seems as if you're never there.

i sit and ( Read more... )

so the second week of summer...
and nothing too exciting.

summer school
which is just what it sounds like.
school in the summer.  ew.

cosmo starts next week too.
so i get to see my cosmo girls.
 thats exciting.  i miss them.

andd OH!
2 days from now is....

JUNE 9!

which means
that

IM 17!

yesss. :)

okay.  thats all.

"Who I Am Hates Who i've Been"

Stop right there. That's exactly where I lost it.
See that line. Well I never should have crossed it.
Stop right there. Well I never should have said
That it's the very moment that
I wish that I could take back.

I'm sorry for the person I became.
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to be sure I never ( Read more... )

hmm.  sometimes i just dont understand.
actually alot.
i wish i knew what people wanted
...what they want from me.
i wish i could read their mind.
and i wish..
i wish i knew the outcome..
the outcome to life
i want to know how each problem will turn out.
how to solve it.
how to make things better.

things would be so much easier that way.

but

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well the year is almost over.  just a couple days left.  then im a senior!  wow the years go by fast!  This year... was an interesting one.  Defilnitley different than any other year.. way different.  alot of things happened... some good.  and others not so good. i made some really close friends who i love.  and one of the bad was my car- totaling ( Read more... )