I am doing great on my "diet". I have lost 17 pound as of Sat. I went to Bea's B'day party yesterday and Alexs sisters and mom noticed and said I look great. I was happy but not as happy as I think I should of been. I just felt like Mary knew I lost 17 pounds and told all of them to say something. I don't know. Either that or I can't take a ( Read more... )

12:05 AM and Kassidy is still up. We all slept pretty late today. 1200PM. BUT she should be falling asleep soon, crossing my fingers. She is sitting in her dolls stroller rolling backwards. Weirdo. Well I'm still on my diet. Hooray! Today I had only 500 something calories AFTER I had my dinner. SO I got to have snacks. I had an apple with carmel ( Read more... )

I decided I wanted to drink tonight. So I am drinking. And I am drunk I think. I am waiting for Dan and Alex to get home, and they are taking too long. Wow if I didn't correct my typing I would have like 30 mistakes. Where the fuck are they? LOSERS! My kitten is missing. It must pf found a good ass hiding place. I have looked everywhere. My stomach ( Read more... )

I'm slacking really bad these days with my journal. Too busy with with phentermine.com. I'm still trooping along on my path to not being fat anymore. I have lost 9 pounds so far in two weeks. I need to lose 30 more to be happy as a clam. 20 might even put a smile on my face. Ok anything less then what I was will make me happy. I fucked up lovely ( Read more... )

I haven't updated in awhile. I'm been so consumed in my Phentermine.com website. I really loved it when I first went to it, but its begining to be the same posts, one after another. I'm taking Adipex as a appetite suppressant, but Adpiex is just a brand of Phentermine. It works great so far. I'm not too hungry during the day. I just adjusted how I ( Read more... )

Doing well on my diet... lost 6 pounds. I know I said I wouldn't weigh myself but I got weak. I wanted to see if I lost any, it was killing me. Yesterday (Saturday) went out with my parents. Today Alex and I are going to Holyoke Mall. Kassidy needs diapers, and I have a good coupon for Toys R Us. 15% off then I can use another manufactors coupon on ( Read more... )

Well its day four into my diet. I think I'm doing pretty good. (Patting myself on the back). I am praying I will stick to this. It's all up to me... damn it! I am not weighing myself til I go to the doctor in one month. I think I may have said that already in my last entry. I don't know... I started another journal on a weight loss web site. I keep ( Read more... )

I started my new diet today. Yes a diet again. I had new pills that supress your appetite. What I really need is a little fat man in the kitchen that will beat my ass if I go in there to eat anything except a meal. It is so damn hard to eat normal. AND not constantly all day. I've been the same weight for over a year now. BUT it needs to start ( Read more... )

Finally stopped fighting with Alex. It is useless. I'm stuck here. Kassidy needs a home. And I guess this is it. I am just fed up with not having money. The bills never end. We never have any extra money for anything. It's so stressful. And Alex drinking drives me insane but he will never change. I love him. He just sucks a lot sometimes. I am ( Read more... )