I only update when I have serious thoughts. I avoid those.

I realized today that something is different about me. On the surface, when I'm with friends, I feel amazing. When I'm home, alone, or driving; I feel distracted and not quiet there. In traditional words, 'I'm fine.' I spent all of today with Mio and Elena. Last night, Robby, Sabrina, Mio ( Read more... )

I have never contemplated suicide before in my life.
Tonight is a first.
I am so completely scared and lost.
Like I'm drowning in the middle of nowhere.
And my body is physically shaking so bad right now.

I. Can't. Function.
And what the fuck kind of excuse is "I can't use a phone right now."
You were fucked up last night and you know it.

I said:

"I like having you on the phone when we're not together. It's comforting."

A moment later, my phone signaled that the call was over.

There was no call-back.

Everyone has to make them. One or the other. If you think you can have both, what do you think happens?

Nothing good in the end, I assure you.

Mmm, stomachache.

In the words of Julia.

I feel like ass.

So I forgot Live-Journal existed.

But It does, and I have an account still, so hi. How are you? Oh, that's nice.

No, really. Recap of my life, in bullet form, since I dropped out.

10 months ago.

• Became full-time manager of Domino's University store.
• Love life is okay at this point.
• Drinking periodically while working for Domino's.
• Transfer back to Domino' ( Read more... )

Prom ticket: $40
Tuxedo Rental: $117
Corsages: $30
Dinner: $50

Going to prom with your best friends: Priceless.

Yeah. Schools is fine. Friends are fine. Romantic life always seems to leave a little room for improvment. Not much else to say. I'm tired as hell and trying to type a research paper. I got 7 hours of sleep. WTF. Why do I feel like I got less then 3? Bad dreams. I can't remember anything about them, but I know I had several last night. And I even ( Read more... )

Wow. This has been one of the best weeks of my life since the 2nd semester started, and Katie and I broke up. I finished a bunch of work in class Monday. Skipped Tuesday and put my parts list together for my PC. Saw Bree and Liz. Wednesday got a bunch of worked done. Thursday: completely and underly fucked up my laptop's hard drive. It's gone, ( Read more... )

I can't say life is wonderful now, but it's going. Schools going good. That's what really counts I, guess. Working and getting paid is nice, though most of my money will be splurged on "useless" things. Yeah, I'll save some/half. I think life will get a lot better after I get my license, because then I'll be all like "Well lets hangout," and then ( Read more... )