There are intense, recurring dreams I keep having. In these dreams, I never left one of the jobs I had in college but somehow continue on for an indeterminate amount of time ( Read more... )

A man said to the universe:
"Sir I exist!"
"However," replied the universe,
"The fact has not created in me
A sense of obligation."-Stephen Crane ( Read more... )

I saw us all in a field of green ( Read more... )

I'm really tired of reading and writing.

Spent all the time I haven't been recording or freelancing reading Baudrillard, Wallace, and Harper's Magazine. Intellectual junk food. Old Jean says some neat things and occasionally hits the hyperreal nail right on the head, but he's also completely full of shit more often than he's right. Wallace is a ( Read more... )

Escaping yourself. Isn't this what music is? In the end, isn't it the escape from the crushing limitations of the physical and the temporal? You can construct something from nothing-- moving air, rearranging it to your own tastes, setting it in motion in a new way, and disappearing into it. You record it and destroy time as it functions in your ( Read more... )

When it gets around eleven the 2020 starts filling up, as it will, with friends from down the road waiting to head to the bar or just drink out on the stoop or in the front yard covered by the darkness of the tilted tree where the grass doesn't grow because people stand there so much ( Read more... )

Looking at two bittersweet months of ( Read more... )

It was very late by the time I was tired. After laying awake for a long time thinking about people and being lonesome, I finally fell asleep on the floor in the big main room around three. When I woke up, it was seven something and I wanted to run, to do something real and work-like, so I put my shorts on and went out to the clearing but it was too ( Read more... )

This makes me angry.So, Cincinnati. It's time you faced up to the fact you have a problem ( Read more... )

Look, it's like, once I love someone, it doesn't go away. This is part of what's wrong with me. I don't know if it's a symptom or the disease itself, but it's not getting better ( Read more... )