another year, no christmas
your diary full of whispers
listens through;
the lewdness of near misses
fruitlessness of your wishes

Smashed up my sanity, Smashed up integrity, Smashed up what I believed in, Smashed up what's left of me, Smashed up my everything, Smashed up all that was true, Gonna smash myself to pieces

torched by the pressure ( Read more... )

sequence of steps, or so you hope to pray or think...rhyme and reason become secondary nature at least, one day draws to a close only to welcome the next one before you get a chance to blink. its a strange sense to feel the inertia of what used to be moment upon moment, the ones you could do without, others that left you on the brink, but even said ( Read more... )

so very sore and dry, as if I didnt have a mind ( Read more... )

no one would see it coming, not because its worth a show, or the obvious or what reason is even there but its still there, buried the pain and memories, grinding on my teeth at night, sometimes I stay up, cry as the acid from my throat paralyzes the chords, and the burn destroys another piece of me, and yet the anger could let me go or I could let ( Read more... )

havent been able to maintain pitch for a while, very disconcerting, just a miserable miserable soul

Captain Bligh ( Read more... )

the sense of loss, everything going down the drain, the eclectic mix of what I used to be is no more, passion is dead.

change comes in ways in which we accept and deny, for better or worse and Im a sucker for keeping out of touch with my friends, those whom have shown fidelity from the beggining...so Im past my worst but not my best, but becoming rectified, getting better, cranking out tunes but it scares the hell out of me at the same time, to just let it all go. ( Read more... )