I can't help it if I have standards and other people (including you) do not.
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I'm calling for change.
In the long run this really is the better choice for me.

I won't lie to myself, It'll be hard. I'll probably be miserable for awhile.   
 But I'm sick of being treated this way.

*Apparently my "attitude" is a problem with some people.

"DON'T LIKE ME??
  ( Read more... )

i'm not entirely sure why ( Read more... )

i was watching a much needed ANTM marathon the other day. they were discussing how people are ALWAYS gunna try & knock ya, no matter what.

and i realized something

its so stupid
and so simple
but

THEY ARE RIGHT.

so what am i going to do?

ima let em' hate. thats what i'm gunna do.

In fact, I'm going to welcome it.

YOU'RE JUST MAKING ME STRONGER.

trying not to be so whiney/ "emo" lately ( Read more... )

Thanksgiving was yesterday. i was getting a 'lets just get this over with' vibe from just about everyone in my family. even with that in mind i still wouldn't say it was a bad holiday. the food was good ( Read more... )

uhhm
 i need a new job.

done with old navy.
i'm happy about that.  no more lard ass Dedra, she can choke.

its just
 now there isnt any cash headed my way..

i had an interview with Hollister last week, it was a group interview and CARRIE was there too.
I think the interview itself went fine.. Hollister is so not me though.. but then again Hollister isn' ( Read more... )

i'm

having a hard time..

well functioning .. really.

i probably need to be around people/"friends" more than ever.

even if i am

OUT OF CONTROL

oh,

people are being mean

again.

im so sick

of being jealous.

seriously.
jealousy, in a way. is what makes me passive-agressive.

most of the time.

UGGH

i should just give up on trying to figure myself out.

im much too complex.

that during fall

changes take place.

i don't really know what to do with myself.

im starting to accept the fact that i really don't have any friends.
accepting this could be a bad thing, it means ive sortof given up on people.

i tried to get better on my own. i failed.
i tried to put myself out there.
i just get laughed at.
REJECTED
all good things must come to an end. eventually. why not ( Read more... )