I feel downright fucking awefull

i should have taken more care of him and im a fucking bastard

im so sorry elliott

Listening to far too much death cab for cutie, playing wow, and watching loads of the OC recently.

fuck my life

Wow, today can really fuck off. So basically I quit my job today thinking it would all be okay coz I would have the comfort of uni to fall back onto. Ya know what, bad things ALWAYS fucking happen to me. Ive been told that I dont have a uni place now coz theyre all filled up and ready to go ( Read more... )

I think ive had a bit of realisation today. I mean I actually got out of the house for once and went and did something.... granted it was a trip to Flamingo Land with someone I hardly ever get to see, btu as soon as I got home I sat in front of my computer and did the same thing I always do, log straight onto that fucking game. I mean, I managed to ( Read more... )

I really ought to stop drinking. I mean at 20 with the all the news about my body and stuff I should really be thinking about sorting myself out a bit ( Read more... )

Right im about to have a massive rant that i would talk to people about, if i thought theyd actually give me an opportunity to talk to them about without cutting me off and saying im talking shit, when i actually am not ( Read more... )

Gallows and plight gig tonight was one of the best ive been to in a long time, saying that, i havent been to any gigs in a long time, so i guess thats a bit of a stupid thing to say.

Slam dunk after was good aswell, cept getting loads of drinks poured on me etc etc but i dont actually care about it ( Read more... )

I literally dont have time for anything or anyone anymore, now that ive started work. Its like, ive got so much people wanting to hang out all the time, and im so tired and im turning into sucyh a shit friend.

It doesnt matter though, coz im feeling fuck loads better about everything now.

My life, my way.

Last night I played computer games till the early hours of the morning. I had loads to think about, and sleeping really wasnt on the agenda. I've done some pretty fucked up things recently, and I've been totally out of character for quite a few weeks now. Not that anyone else might care, but I kinda do. I dont know whether its the drinking or what ( Read more... )

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