to answer (if vaguely) your question about the last couple months of my life, read this ( Read more... )

my brain and my heart are racing a mile a minute.

god damn.

i can't even begin to describe the absolute anxiety that i've felt for the past week...i just need an answer; one answer; the right answer.

there are so many things that i wish i could change or done differently.

it's been very hard here; holidays have always been tough for me, but for the first time in four years, i feel empty. not bad or good just completely void of any real feelings.

i want....

jenna,

i really need to talk to you. there are things going through my head right now that i really need to talk about with my best friend. i fear i'm losing my mind. honestly.

i work today from one until seven. please call me.

xo

after three years of moving and going nowhere, i'm back here at my father's house in orchard park ( Read more... )

i finally did it.

i got my hands tattooed.

well, i got the underside of each middle finger tattooed to be exact.

i love them; i really did need that. and it didn't hurt in the least. i was rather shocked.

thank you noelle; for everything; you're right, it was cathartic.

xo

my cat is in heat and i want to throw her out the window.  who knew that a five pound animal could make so much noise and be so fucking annoying. note to self: if i ever get a female animal ever again, she will be immediately spayed AND declawed. cat in heat=loud, annoying, horny and evil animal.

anywho.

it's been a little over 48 hours since my ( Read more... )

i get weird dreams anyhow but add nyquil to that and this is what ensues ( Read more... )

why is it that every time that he's gone, something bad happens and i have to get surgery? never fails ( Read more... )

i really don't think that anyoe reads this anymore, so i'll keep it short.

shannon and i went out last night and it was awesome. must do more often.

not so awesome: i dropped my cell phone into a puddle. it works still...but now; and ever afterwards, it's going to be in my purse and never in a pocket.

22 days.