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eigengrau
And that, my loves, is why we can't have nice things.
Hang your head. We'll do it together. Baby, I'll even go first. -
the mouth is the origin of catastrophe
hey wassup livejournal. I'm actually phasing out this username. Just naturally sorta. All snakelike. BUT ENOUGH ABOUT ME
more about me:
I just wanna type out some stuff that irks me so I know to grow over it. woobeans? coo'beans.
stuff I don't like in fanfiction/writing/generally fanfiction because I read a lot of it and the original stuff I do read ( Read more... ) -
sleep tight; dream loose
What is my problem? I am mildly unhappy and I don't know why. I am unsatisfied. I want more and when I get more I want more than that. I don't like this. I don't like being tired like this, not again. I left this behind. How did I get back here? How did I let myself go back ( Read more... ) -
our endless days are numbered
God, the world's so ugly. It's ugly in faces and talk and lies and ugly in all those intimate little nooks and crannies I'd always figured would be beautiful. I haven't even been slighted personally. It's this dereliction and loss that sickens me, how these bright and sunny afternoons were poisoned with what spilled from your lips (or onto them). ( Read more... ) -
November 25, 2010
For the record ( Read more... ) -
November 24, 2010
I cut off a friend around two years ago. I disagreed with her on a point that wasn't personal to either of us, my sister vocalised her own belief (which was the same as mine), and then this person, without naming names, was disparaging on Facebook. Ohh, Facebook, big deal, right? She even deleted it after.
The point is that I saw it. The statement ( Read more... ) -
keep me closer
I'm trying but I can't really remember a time I felt you guys were interested. A time I wasn't seeking your validation. Aren't I supposed to be over this? Better than this? Grown up, up, and outta here? I think, maybe it's the longevity-- but, no, because this was how the first measures played out: we talked. I liked that we talked. I wanted us to ( Read more... ) -
believe in everything about this moment
I'm closing my eyes and breathing deep and pushing and pushing and then I'm looking around and wondering why everything's so far away. I'm an idiot. It's late, I feel like I'm chasing Zen. I feel like I'm ready. I feel like I'm waiting, always. And I feel wanting, and I don't want it to be particular but it is and it's grinding away and I really ( Read more... ) -
the urge hums
The baaad thing about drawing so much joy from one thing is that it can hurt you back. Then where do you go, punk?
I'm tired, man. I don't know why, but I am. I don't feel like doing anything. I'm tired of people expecting things from me all the time-- and it's not like, school and stuff, it's just... life. Expectations. Living up to shit. I feel ( Read more... ) -
if you think of someone, they will feel it
Things That Are Nice And That I Like Having In My Life:- Cuddling with my mom
- How there's always a space for me next to her on the bed
- Kissing my parents good night
- Laughing with my sister
- Having those maaaad deep conversations with my sister