This last entry was not supposed to be in this journal. I made a stupid mistake. My bad.

I'm in love with my best friend's brother.
Trully in love.
He's in my dreams and on my mind all the time.
So why doesnt he fucking call me!
he's torturing me. more than matt ever did.
and i'm falling apart.

Why can't i just meet nice guys?
Or why can't guys be nice to me?

Okay so Matt did his little research on wives beating there husbands. Well that's real nice but you were forgetting about how many of those husbands die because of the beatings>>? Hmm? I'm sure it can't compare to 5,000 a year. I'm sure that men are too shy to complain because the women hardly leave a mark. But anyway i'm not going to waste my time ( Read more... )

I'm sort of having a turning point in my life. I think I may want to change my major. To a career in female political activism. Something like that. What is making me consider this is that i was reading my sociology book today to study for my test on thursday and ch. 10 is on gender inequality, violence against women etc. which everyone else who ( Read more... )

Yesturday i had my astronomy exam. I met the guy i've had a crush on since August, the 1st day of class. I finally got to talk to him. I like him but he has a lot of girls around him. i hate that. I didnt get his number and he didnt get mine and i might not ever see him again. Because he said he was going to UCF next semester. I wanted him to ask ( Read more... )

For those of you who would like know when i'm in town In Rockledge the dates i took off from work are: December 16th-20th and 24th-26th. That's it. I won't be in town for New Year's because i would have more fun here and it is my favorite holiday so i wouldn't want to spend it trying to get a hold of people in Rockledge or being alone ( Read more... )

I'm leaving today. And i hope to find someone in Boca. I hope to meet that special person in time for christmas or new years. I don't want to be alone for the holidays. I just don't. I havent been in a long time. Not since 8th grade i think. All those Christmas love songs. They just make it 10 times worse to be alone. So i hope i find someone.

I HATE ROCKLEDGE!
I hate the people
and i hate the town!
There is nothing to do here.
People are so rude here.
NO ONE answers their phones here.
And no body cares about anyone or anything.
I want to go home..
back to boca raton.
i don't belong here anymore.
I'm so alone here.
I hate Rockledge.
I hope i never have to come back!

Yea ( Read more... )

La Bare is this Male strip club in Ft. Lauderdale that i went to on Sat. night. And it was off the chain! i'm still excited about it. Fuckn me and Lucy bought a lap dance for our friend Lyndsey. The stripper's name was mike and he was a bad boy. like he was dressed like one. and he was so fuckn hot man. so i got him to give me a lap dance too. lol ( Read more... )