at His feet

[nocturneslady]

Note: this started off as a post about bowing, kneeling, and otherwise being at Master's feet. It has morphed into a history of how we met and eventually became who we are. I'm not sure how it happened. I guess I just felt that talking about kneeling needed background. So here goes...

A year ago, I could never have imagined myself feeling a desire

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[nocturneslady]

I was just talking to phedre13 about relationships (not romantic, necessarily, but just in general) and community that we create in so many spheres of our lives. I refuse to admit the idea that you are any less my friend because we've never met. I do consider you a real friend and I have the shells to prove it! To me, our friendship isn't lesser because we can't snuggle up while we talk about stuff, it is just different.

That said, yeah, I really do wish we lived i the same place and could have that aspect, too.

:: sings "Oh wouldn't it be loverly?" ::

[shm_hisforever]

thank you so much for sharing this - and in case you didn't already guess this is very very close to the story of Master and i meeting too

*hugs* i am so pleased for you to be His

[nocturneslady]

I am not at all surprised to hear that our meetings were similar. We each have devious wonderfully indulgent Masters. *giggle* even if they don't believe us about mysterious airport closures. Harrumph.

[fae_raven]

Thanks so much for sharing this beautiful story! :)

[nocturneslady]

*smile* thank you. I enjoyed writing it, and Master was pleased, too, which is really the important part.

[fierceawakening]

That icon is ridiculously hot and I need a moment to drool at it before saying anything coherent... *ogle*

okay :)

He said he had been waiting for me to say that, and that He wanted to meet me, too. I found out later that the black-hearted devil (meaning Master) had deliberately worked to make me break all of my rules about not approaching men and tell Him I wanted to meet him. He further told me that as he saw it happening, it was incredibly erotic, and He experienced certain... errrmmm... physical manifestations as He watched me struggle with myself and then give in to His unspoken desires. I tell Him I am still mad about that, but the truth is, I find it incredibly exciting that even back then, He was exerting His will over me.

Heh, I recognize that... I've done it too. :) It can be easy to see when people have walls up that they actually don't WANT to have, and that's, well, fun to play with, if you already know that doing so isn't going to do harm.

[nocturneslady]

I know. The first time I was that icon I thought I would faint. HOT!!!!

I love hate love fear hate love have a variety of complicated feelings about His tactics. I wouldn't feel the same way now, of course, as I trust Him completely and He knows He may do with me as He wishes.

Do you think this is a trait that most of you Domly Ones share?

[fierceawakening]

I love hate love fear hate love have a variety of complicated feelings about His tactics. I wouldn't feel the same way now, of course, as I trust Him completely and He knows He may do with me as He wishes.

Do you think this is a trait that most of you Domly Ones share?
Yeah, I think so. It's sexy to get inside someone's head, to play around with their expectations. (I don't know if you've been following my novel, or if you'd even like it -- it's got a lot of bloodplay in it in addition to D/s-y elements -- but a big theme in it is the dominant one intentionally choosing someone who's vanilla-but-curious and seducing her into going ever deeper into SM and submission

[nocturneslady]

want to know that the person is actually dominating them, not just indulging their sexual fantasies to be nice/sweet/giving.

I am terrified of getting into that cycle. My fantasies are only hot if he wants to do those things to/for/with me. The acts themselves aren't intrinsically hot. It is serving him and his desires that does it for me. So when he asks me about my fantasies, I don't really have much to say. Without His desires, there aren't really any acts I crave in and of themselves.

so yes, I want him in my brain, truly dominating me. It is sooooooooooooooooo delicious. I can't get enough, really.
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I haven't read any of the novel at all. I'm having a hard time reading people's posts. I need to pick a new layout. This one just doesn't work well for me. I miss links and cuts and... I don't know. It's just problematic.

Can you point me back to teh beginning? Is there a place I can find all of the chapters together? I would love to read it, and it does sound very sexy. *smile*

xo

[fabmadamj]

Thank Eris for the internet. For serious.

[nocturneslady]

For REALSIES. Without it, I would have neither Him nor you. How sad is that?

xo