well, i'm not mad anymore... took me hours yesterday to calm down, but i managed it. it's just that when things go wrong around here, they really go wrong. first my phone gets disconnected, then my net connection won't do anything, ICQ wouldn't even open and my family left a fucking great mess in the kitchen for me to clean up when they all went ( Read more... )

today i feel as though i'm surperfluous. anyone know what it's like to be brushed aside in favour of something else?? i know that i shouldn't feel like this, it's just me being silly. but not being able to talk about it makes me feel worse. it's not that i don't want to talk, it's just that i physically can't. i just can't seem to form the words ( Read more... )

i've been writing an awful lot in my real (read paper) journal lately. i never realised how much i wrote before now. when you write over three A4 pages of very small writing in just one day, you know that maybe you're spending a little too much time writing and thinking instead of being out doing something. people must think that i'm a weirdo, ( Read more... )

thank god for cold and flu tablets ( Read more... )

i take it that your weekend was good then?

it was different...
It made me realise what an impact that you guys have had on my life.

me, who is always at home by herself, while everyone else goes out?

especially you Kim...
I guess you can say that I think I've found my footing in the relationship..

it's hanging by a thread. time is granted.

aaaaarrrrrgggggghhhhh!!!!!

not the best new years eve i've ever had. have been feeling a bit sick the last few days, so drinking did not help (which is hardly surprising). stopped after only about four due to the way i felt ( Read more... )

it's really strange ( Read more... )

i'm being silly and i know it. i shouldn't get mad because you told someone else. i mean, what do i mean to you anyway?

monkey_kplunk i'm sorry that i took it out on you. sometimes i think i should become a recluse, then no one could hurt me, and i in turn wouldn't hurt others who mean a great deal to me. not like i'd get lonely, i don't have that many close ( Read more... )

Why are some people so much more accepting than others? I mean, I didn't give out that many clues, and yet some people worked it out for themselves, and others that i told by choice weren't surprised. i didn't know that i was that transparent. Makes me feel good though that your opinion of me hasn't changed, unlike some other people ( Read more... )