so i want to have a closer relationship with god. i don't understand why everybody is making it seem like that is such a horrible thing.

ehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

i need a motha fuckin job.

well it's almost 4 in the morning; & i'm still awake. i have way too much on my mind and it's driving me crazy. i mean i'm obviously having a bad day today or night whatever, and i hate it. i hate nights like these. or maybe i just hate myself. well right now i hate everything. & i think moving is out of the picture now. i honestly wouldn't mind ( Read more... )

summer is finally here!

i honestly thought it was never going to come.

my dad came home today. i miss him. its weird when he's not around but im getting more and more used to it everyday. i actually hate it but whatever.

there are only 17 more days til my birthday and i can't waittt!!! finally im going to be 17. no more curfew! well its not like i ( Read more... )

So i guess this is it...

my father got the job. He leaves Monday.

So... i'll know for sure by monday; or " by the beginning of the week". 
( same ass thing. )
i wanna know for sure because im really anxious, scared, & nervous all at the same time.

either way, my life is gunna change for sure.

i think that i have grown up so much in just a matter of 4 weeks. my life has literally been turned upside down. and i find myself doing things i would have never even imagined of doing a couple of months ago. everything has been so hectic. like a roller coaster.

I quit my job. i have this big weight lifted off my shoulders but i need some sort of ( Read more... )

i've always been taught that telling the truth would always be the right thing. and i've never doubted that for a second. it's exactly what i did. i told the truth; but all it did was hurt me.and yet again i've fucked up probably another thing that was the best thing for me. and now is the time when i realized it the most. i have to be the most ( Read more... )

so it's been a really long time since i've actually been happy. or okay at least. and these past few months have been the best i've ever had? this month actually. i think it just all has to do with meeting jeremy, because he's helped me to see things in people that i never really looked at before. he is amazing. i can't get enough of him. we're ( Read more... )

I've never really realized how much i hate school. I really do hate it. And i've been slacking off alot which isn't good. Im just so sick of it and i can't wait for it to be over.

I also can't wait for Koye to move back home. I miss him so much.

& i have a boyfriend. and if i've ever said it before i didn't really mean it, but i have never met ( Read more... )