Wallpaper 4x21: Pain

Mar 15, 2012 18:35

So I´m on vacation again and was told to "create something so you don't feel dissatisfied". Right! The weather isn't great today, but the sea still is absolutely awesome ( Read more... )

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siberian_angel March 15 2012, 17:47:05 UTC
Who was so rude to interrupt your well deserved vacation?! XD
But if that's the outcome, I'm the last to complain. =) Aww Dean, this character breaks my heart in pieces and as much as I want him to find his peace, I'm also selfish and say I want him to keep it up with the man pain through an 8th season. And a 9th. Oh, and of course a 10th too... I'm cruel, ain't I?

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no_ones_sleep March 15 2012, 17:57:40 UTC
The funny thing is, that I really enjoy creating wallpapers over here- I mean, I could easily do that at home, but with the sea right before me I feel so much more.. concentrated? At peace? Hungry?

And no peace for Dean! I love to torture that man. There may be a zillion fan fictions with schmoop and butterflies (which is basically the same...), but all I care for are the dark stories that break him and put him back together, only to have him fall to pieces again. And I have no idea why that is. Important is just that he doesn't ever give up. That he carries on, no matter what is thrown his way.

BTW, derzeitiger Lost-Stand: 2x13 :-).

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siberian_angel March 15 2012, 18:07:01 UTC
You and Dean are so alike - but when he does give up eventually and the show ends, I'll be here to carry you on. You're not allowed to shadow Dean like that, period.

Aww, "The Long Con" was the first Sawyer centric episode that made me fall for that character completely. I had oogled him before, but as of that episode I was invested into the characters past and what made him become the man he became.

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no_ones_sleep March 15 2012, 18:24:49 UTC
Kann ich Dir antworten, wenn ich aufgehört hab' zu heulen? Du berührst mich so sehr, meine Freundin. Danke.

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no_ones_sleep March 15 2012, 22:39:00 UTC
Hey, thank you for your comment!

I agree that Sam is what ties Dean to his life- and that was why I feared for him so much in S5. Sam seemed to have gone darkside, seemed to have abandoned all Dean stood for, even beat him half to death- and so it was some sort of suicide attempt when Dean said yes to Michael. But he found new strength when he found that Sam still believed in him. And now in S7 Dean hinted at putting Sam in a car and driving off a cliff (or pier?), so I believe he is more depressed than those around him can perceive. But again Sam is still there and he needs Dean- and Dean needs Sam, so both still have a reason to go on, like you said- until there's no one left.

And I hope they will always have each other. *clings to hope*

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xenia_27 March 15 2012, 19:35:59 UTC
poor baby Dean, I love him so much! I've been talking to a friend who gave up watching spn after the 5th season and we agreed that it would be kinder to kill both boys rather than to force them live like that and continue suffering. Dean is not dead inside, but his life is constant pain without hope, he can't even kill himself because that would mean hell and he wouldn't want to go there again. I love fluffy happy fics that allow Dean find absolution and peace of mind
Have you seen this vid?

It breaks my heart

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no_ones_sleep March 15 2012, 22:49:18 UTC
Oh wow!!! I have no idea why that vid escaped my attention as Ash is on my flist, too... Thank you so much for bringing it to my attention, that is exactly the kind of tragic and sadness I love SPN for.

Did your friend give up watching because it was too tragic? S5 to me is the worst season if all, but that makes it so special to me.

It's really a problem what will happen after their death- neither heaven nor hell are good choices in the SPN- verse. But maybe there will a different heaven once, one that is worthwhile staying at after God returns or something.

Have a wonderful weekend!

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xenia_27 March 16 2012, 08:28:22 UTC
yes! the spn heaven is a terrible place! better than the hell, sure, but to spend the eternity like a hamster in the wheel repeating the same things again and again is just wrong. He has to gank himself with the colt or ruby's knife t destroy his soul to vanish completely from that plane of existence. Oh, god, I am planning Dean's kill, what's wrong wit me?! :)

My friend couldn't stand all the tragedy any more, so she quit watching after couple of episodes in the beginning of the 5th season. I kinda keep her informed what's up there but not in too much details. :)

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no_ones_sleep March 16 2012, 09:11:49 UTC
You really are a good friend!

Haha, yes, ket's plan Dean's death- I like that! We would be more mercyful than any of the others... Maenad said that Dean and Sam might become ghosts after they die so they could escape heaven and hell and continue to help people that way. I really like the idea on the one hand, on the other hand they would turn spiteful in the end, because that seems to happen to every spirit... I so do not want to be in Dean's place!

You know what is best about today? It's the day before we get a new episode!! Yay!!!

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ladywillin March 15 2012, 20:11:34 UTC
I'd love to stay and chat more but as always these days I'm battling time.

I just wanted you to know that I've seen this. It makes me want to smother that boy in motherly love (or maybe not so motherly :)).

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no_ones_sleep March 15 2012, 22:54:46 UTC
Thank you so much for taking the time even though you had none! I appreciate that!

It's weird, I am older than Dean but feel like I would submit to him. He is such an authority, he is so self-assured (or appears to be), and I feel safe in his presence. So he ismprotecting me while indeed I should give him some shelter and all... but hey, I have whiskey. The good stuff, no Bourbon. XD

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ash48 March 15 2012, 23:05:02 UTC
Hey hun,

This is a great representation.

I see Dean as one of the strongest characters ever. He DOES keep going. He has to.... but he does because he puts other people ahead of himself.

I think Dean is still on a journey. He'll break and find ways to repair himself. I think (I hope!) famine was just playing with him when he said those words. Dean was dead for wanting anything. He didn't think he deserved anything for himself - I think that's what Famine was seeing. Dean is still full of emotion. Maybe his journey will be complete when he finally sees and accepts his self worth.

*hugs* him.

<33

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no_ones_sleep March 16 2012, 09:20:20 UTC
Thank you! ♥

I have come to see Famine's words like you said- Dean was dead to him because he wanted nothing for himself anymore. And yes, Dean keeps on going because he still has Sam to care for- and that is why I am afraid because if Sam is taken away from him for good (if there is such a thing on SPN), he has no reason to stay. But that is never going to happen, of course! No! It just isn't! *clings to hope*

BTW, I think Xenia posted one of your videos above :-). It must have slipped my attention- that one is such a masterpiece! Again...

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ash48 March 16 2012, 13:49:28 UTC
and that is why I am afraid because if Sam is taken away from him for good (if there is such a thing on SPN), he has no reason to stay

Ack! nooooooo.... Dean without Sam or Sam without Dean is just...noooo.
Though I am curious to see what happens next. I can completely unspoiled upcoming episodes (yay), but if Sam has some sort of major meltdown, then I'm not sure how Dean will cope. He is already on the edge.

And yes. I did see my vid. It's always I lovely surprise when someone comments with something I've done. and...Thank you. I'm glad you liked it.
<3

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xenia_27 March 16 2012, 14:06:16 UTC
You are the Ash? Oh, how I love your vids! I don't have enough words to tell you how they make me feel! It's incredible how many talented people are in this fandom :)

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