There's a lot that went down. (And after I explain more about this week, I'll come back to this. Marou wasn't played in one day. ;) )

Lucky can't seem to shake the feeling that something she can't see is going to get her. Paranoia is healthy, right? This isn't normal paranoia. Suddenly, she doesn't want to see her friends and family. She's not really interested in how the twins are. She shuts herself off from those seeking to help her. Even X, who usually doesn't see things, ( Read more... )

'Fate isn't really a bitch until you get her pregnant.' Or keep the truth from her. After long conversations yesterday, I understand better. June was right. Sex, to me, is more than simply sex. It's a bonding of two souls. Something you don't take lightly, or at least I don't. I'll forgive this, as I didn't realise ... but I won't forget. Forgiving ( Read more... )

Lucky sits at the computer quietly. Between Chel's reactions and Jason's calm discussion about what happened, she is calm enough to not lash out at anyone just yet. She gets up slowly, carefully, as she did while pregnant. She takes equally measured slow steps outside, to where the hot tub sits. A quiet night greets her, not another soul in sight. ( Read more... )

2 weeks ago today, my children were born. Michael Justice Gino Crawford and Hope Grace Maria Crawford. I should be a proud mother. And yet ... rage fills my every being, past the point of no return. Is it the fact I feel useless in my own household? Is it the fact I can let few people close enough to even begin to feel the pain I'm in? Or would it ( Read more... )

My children were born last Thursday at noon. Both are well, and healthy. That's not my current problem.

All I should say is MEN SUCK.

Everything I thought was fact before now, really doesn't seem to be. And every day, I learn something new. I love two men. Gino wants me to leave, yesterday. My little sister knows I care. But nothing ever seems to work out like it's supposed to ( Read more... )

Lucky is sleeping in her usual spot on the bed. Her stomach moves without help and it stretches towards the ceiling. The movements continue until Lucky wakes up, biting back the urge to scream from the pain she feels. She looks around, and doesn't see anyone else around. Heading towards the living, hoping someone is there, she keeps a hand on her ( Read more... )

I had forgotten the password to this thing and it took me forever to find it. *sigh* Being pregnant is hell on my nerves. Oh yeah, I *did* mention I'm 6 months pregnant, right? I can't seem to keep anything straight anymore. I can't remember when I saw Chels, or Jase, or even June last. I can't remember if I've eaten. I can't even remember what ( Read more... )

When you have come to the edge of all the light you know, and are ( Read more... )