Had strange dreams last night of taking drugs and waking up naked in the park with other such people and all of us being very... amused by it. Also that someone was trying to kill me. I think I need to get out of the house ( Read more... )

woke up at midnight, forced self back to sleep until four am. stubbornly remained in bed until angry stomach insisted on being fed. have had no appetite lately. have lost over ten pounds in past five days. am trying to suppress secret elation for weight loss with horror for the unhealthy habits that have caused it. must stop writing in telegraphese ( Read more... )

Ugh! am full of sickness ( Read more... )

There is a band out there somewhere named Siddal, how perfect is that? It makes me so sad that they... kinda suckish. They should not be allowed to bogart such an excellent name. Also, am very depressed that summer is slipping away without spontaneous beach fun. Must find excuse to drive to beach ( Read more... )

my drug bike, here forward to be known as "happy jack", is missing a cable. Luckily it is probably the least important, but still essential for my needs. Unfortunately, I know I will NEVER fix it. That would require mo-ti-va-tion.

Am very excited about unwork this weekend. Although I know I will end ( Read more... )

I started riding bike again.. my legs feel all rubbery. Oh, and it is a drug trafficking bike! But it is going to have to go clean now that it is with me. I'll help it through it's withdrawals ( Read more... )

I felt very strange walking down the street with my mum's american flag umbrella. She got it free when she was in New York. Umbrellas are like T-shirts in that they are human billboards, only far more eyecatching. Naturally I felt uncomfortable advertising "God Bless America". It is sad to me that we finally took prayer out of school, but we cannot ( Read more... )

I have escaped work for a long weekend. No work, no thinking about work ( Read more... )

Ran some errands, wish that made me feel productive. But really I was just spending money. Still feel hateful and sick and.. constantly on the verge of tears. Gah! Stupid mood swings!

am very bad person, full of hate for everything
must defuse through mindless activity