There's been lots of drama and LOTS of anxiety lately. About everything. I'm unsure of what to do at this point. Everything makes me anxious. Everything makes me sick. So tired of it.

We picked our venue on Saturday!( Read more... )

You know, I don't expect this wedding to be ALL about me. But I feel like I'm in competition with his mother. What I wouldn't give to hear "You've dreamed of this day, you do things how you want and screw everyone else!" I mean honestly... my mom makes cakes, I'd never even CONSIDER her making my wedding cake. And even then, it's not about that. ( Read more... )

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As of today, I am quitting with the whole picking my fingers thing.

I keep catching myself doing it. I can't believe how big of an OCD thing it has become for me. I plan to stick to it.

Anxiety sucks. I am just now starting to really want to get control of it.

Spent the last 4 hours on the couch. 3 of them laying down with a pillow and blanket. Feel depressed ( Read more... )

Today's a mess already ( Read more... )

Worry Journal Post #1 ( Read more... )

I decided I need to take hold of my anxiety. I'm tired of it. I'm hoping writing my worries daily will help. So here goes ( Read more... )

It's pretty interesting to look back.

How depressed I must have been. How unmotivated I was without even knowing it.

I look at myself today and I feel good. I was depressed and didn't even know it at the time.

Life is good. :)