So if anyone is interested, abraxane is a powder that has to be mixed fresh every dose (mine was mixed in the pharmacy next door to the infusion room). Once it's mixed, it looks like watered-down milk. It takes about 30 minutes to infuse (through an IV line ( Read more... )

And I see you're already trying to get on my good side by managing to schedule my first chemo for ... Friday. Wait a minute, that IS a pretty good trick!

One infusion per week for three weeks, then off a week, then rinse and repeat. For at least six months. Oy. // holds head in hands //

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The less said about YOU, the better. You are forever on my shit list.

No chemo today, because insurance literally only approved the treatment late this afternoon. So that will probably start either Friday or next week.

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Okay, so. I didn't want to make another post until I actually had some news, and, if we look at the calendar, it's been approximately ... four weeks. For any real news.

( So here it is, under the cut ... )

Who knows? What does it mean -- to be dead? Maybe we have a hundred senses and it's only the five we know that die, and we come to know the other ninety-five.

From Anton Chekhov's The Cherry Orchard, Tom Stoppard translation.

Isn't that a great quote? I really like it. It had been MANY years since I'd read The Cherry Orchard, but this edition ( Read more... )

OKAY SO.

( Cut for the medical story so far ... )

While I am obviously still hoping to be a good candidate for immunotherapy, there is a part of me that is at the point where I would happily inject straight Drano into my veins to start killing these little lung motherfuckers bugs. So tired of being tired and out of breath at the slightest exertion all the time ( Read more... )

And okay, already I'm giving you the benefit of the doubt because today I got an appointment with the oncologist I want, this coming Friday. So FINALLY I can start getting some answers.

Otherwise ... I finished reading James Robert Parish's Fiasco: A History of Hollywood's Iconic Flops, which is a pretty interesting examination of how cost ( Read more... )

I can say, without any equivocation whatsoever, that you sucked in every way possible, up to and including ways of suckage that scientists of the first rank have not even theorized yet.

On the other hand ... I read Rebecca Makkai's The Great Believers and really enjoyed it ( Read more... )

OK, so. The pneumonia thing? I kept not getting better and not getting better and not getting better, so I had a CT scan this morning. Guess what?

It wasn't pneumonia.*

So here we go again. I mean, what are you gonna do? You gotta keep putting one foot in front of the other.**

*For those who want it spelled out, it's lung cancer.
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