Happy birthday Christopher today is April 22nd and my husband would have been 27. It's really hard for me to imagine him as anything but the age I saw him. He'll never age, he'll never grow grey hairs, he'll never get wrinkles, he'll never be anything but perpetually 23. Sometimes I wish I could go back and appriciate his birthdays more, the other ( Read more... )

something.. I'm not sure what. Yet again it's been awhile since I updated. I don't know that anyone even reads this so I just ramble on venting and talking my thoughts out. Things are in an uproar here in my life - still no job, trying to sell my house, my son is insane (Is that a new thing?) and my bf is distant. Mmm.. no nothing new there. I ( Read more... )

Well insanity is here. No I don't mean those foolish after Thanksgiving Before Christmas Oh God What Do I Buy shoppers, I mean my child, Demon Spawn. (For those who don't know better, I AM NOT THE DEMON!) He is on a mission to make me crazier than I already am. Then the cat ate another ornament and broke more tree branches off my already poor ( Read more... )

Reasons to Hate December I hate December. I hate the wet weather that won't turn to snow and is just mushy cold rain and the moist dampness that lingers. I hate December because it reminds me of the fights and the anger and my husband's death. I hate December because sometimes, it's everything I am not - cheerful and loving and good. I hate ( Read more... )

Thanksgiving Well, I got out of hosting Thanksgiving again. I've only done it once and it was insane and I'm glad I'm never going to do it again as long as my mother is playing Martyr. (If you read this mom, it doesn't mean I don't love ya!) My son and I ended up staying up Wednesday night with friends, so we got a late start on Thursday. When we ( Read more... )

HAPPY 5th BIRTHDAY BABY!! Okay, three days late and such but I was BUSY on his birthday! Friday dawned so bright and sunny. It was great. He climbed into bed with me and we snuggled and talked, then he went and opened up a brand new present and played while I got ready. We got him ready for school, then I dropped him off and ran some errands. At 2 ( Read more... )

The Flu Note to self : getting ready for a birthday party is never easy when one is dying from The Flu ( Read more... )

You are 73% Gemini


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Rule Number One For Mondays Don't get up. Don't roll over and look at the clock. Definitely don't let the child climb in the bed with you and convince you that the two of you should spend some Quality Time together. Uhg. I gave in. Jr. stayed home and I had an insane afternoon ( Read more... )

It's midnight here and I just finished watching a show that felt like it was God tapping me on the shoulder. It's been a while since I sat and cried about things that are pointless, but I guess I am tonite. In this show, a woman called a co-worker, who was obviously exhausted, to beg for help. She needed her to cover her shift which must have ( Read more... )