i made a new journal.

alifesosmall

add it if you read this whatsoever.

everything i have

is trite

and cheap

and a waste.

Last night I wrecked my explorer ( Read more... )

can the drama be over?

jesus.

in other news... i'm once again a guitar center employee. the valiant return of the wonder boy of pro audio shall occur next week. cameras ready.

right now...

i need:

a pack of camel lights a day

complete inebriation occasionally
or just a stiff drink.

and a soft skinned belly to lay my head on.

right now,

things are looking up.

its easier when theres no pull.

you're the worst best thing that's ever happened to me holley.

but this is the worst

you made me into someone i dont want to be.

you're everything to me, when i'm absolutely nothing to you.

why wasnt i enough for you?

i just want to die all the time now.

i love you.

and you're at work right now. but I hope you know that i'm thinking about you all the time.

i really wish i had a job that was roughly the same hours as holley's. i could see her more then.

and i wish she was back, because i havent seen her since the morning.

and i have to work at 9:30 until 2.

from holley's project-

( picture post much? )