You were just a transition state. I really want to believe that. But you are under my skin and the fact that I will probably never ever speak to you again drives me nuts sometimes. You escaped, free and clean. You took the easy way out. It is not fair, what you did and what you did to me ( Read more... )

I am angry with you. I am pissed off and sad that I can't watch a fricken Oprah episode about Yosemite because it makes me think of you. I hate you for ruining my perfect bubble. You are a coward and just a dick. I am pissed off at the way you treated me. You are a coward. I don't even know what else to say to describe you. Just ASDLKFJADFKJASL how ( Read more... )

I love being free. Free as a bird. I am not committed to anyone, or anything. I have no obligations to anyone, or anything. I am free. I am not constantly angry or worrying about someone else. All I have to worry about is me, myself, and I. I come and go as I please. I can travel. I can drive places and not tell anyone. I can do whatever the hell I ( Read more... )

and YOU. I wish I could erase you from my brain. we are nothing. I don't know if my brain fully comprehends that yet. or fully understands it, or realizes it, or... I don't know. I don't know you anymore. but we are nothing.

I don't know what I want, I don't know who I want. All I want is to be happy. I want to know that one day, I'll be happy and I'll be okay. I want people who are supposed to my friends to stop being so fucking immature and actually pick up the phone or make some type of effort. Its always me. Me me me. I'm done. I've been done. I barely have enough ( Read more... )

Oh how many tiny pieces of me lie in Oregon...and soon to be Hawaii and San Diego and Kansas. I hope these close bonds keep for life..and maybe I'll receive a visitor from SO.CAL to keep brightening my days and prove I deserve someone amazing. This trip was quite possibly more amazing than Europe. And not for obvious reasons. Ahhhhhh why do my new ( Read more... )

I'm so sick of bullshit. I am just so disgusted how everything in my life turned out the way it is right now. I need to officially cut off all loose ends and burn all the remaining bridges in my life, as I feel I've already started to do. I'm so disappointed in the world, in so many people I used to love and be close to. The thought of some people ( Read more... )

"Love is a smoke made with the fumes of sighs;
Being purged, a fire sparkling in lovers' eyes;
Being vexed, a sea nourished with lovers' tears;
What is it else? A madness most discreet,
A choking gall, and a preserving sweet."
(Romeo and Juliet, 1.1.191-5)

"The only thing worse than being heartbroken is knowing that people are waiting impatiently for you to move on, rolling their eyes at your sadness and mocking the most intense pain you've ever had to endure."

.:*Sunday ( Read more... )