I'm not running away from you, I'm running away from her.

I'm like a leaky bucket, holes all over and incapable of holding all this love for you, it makes it seem like such a small thing. I worry that I don't hold enough to make this work, and that I spill all over at the wrong times. I'm out of control in this way ( Read more... )

Jason--You don't talk to your girlfriend like that. Stupid.

Everyone I know is savin up
to finish their tattoos
Or moving away
going back to school

Somebody on campus told me
it's important that I vote
I took a test, matching colored squares
that told me how I felt

It looks like all the evidence says
that intelligent others came before us
but dug-up dusty bones

Hey, in case you hadn't noticed, this is my journal for all the entries that are depressing, and I don't want anyone to worry about me. I didn't think anyone really read it anymore. I'm fine, really. I was just thinking yesterday as I walked home about how my advisor really doesn't think I'll make it into UW, and how he's probably right. They're ( Read more... )

Oh, what's a poor boy to do?

I don't know how I go from the top of the world to feeling so low, if I did know I would try not to let it happen. From here, it seems like I'll never have enough energy or strength to finish school or take care of myself or anyone else. It feels like nothing is happening and I'm getting nowhere. It feels like I am turning into nothing, and I don' ( Read more... )

So I applied my hands to their wounds, to stop some blood loss with the pressure and found it only a matter of time before my turn to bleed as well. And I called out for some help, for just another pair of hands but no one came--tell me, are these your plans? Was that an answer? IS THIS YOUR PLAN? I've come across at least thousand books to ( Read more... )

If I get my heart broken this time, I promise you I'll be surprised. I've never trusted anyone this much.

I am writing here because I don't think anyone reads this anymore. What will it take for me to believe that she loves me? So why is it that when we're away for so long I play out all these conversations that never happened, and as far as I know will not happen, over and over in my head. Is it because the phone just doesn't make a real connection ( Read more... )