Comments | neurotika: I am a vistor here; I am not permanent.

neurotika

I am a vistor here; I am not permanent.

Apr 19, 2010 02:34

Was back at Vassar this weekend for a Squirm 10th anniversary conference/reunion/networking thing. Being on campus again was...surreal, to say the least. It's been long enough that I comprehend I'm not supposed to be there, but not long enough that it feels foreign...so I had this weird "I'm here but I'm not really here" dissonance the whole time. ( Read more... )

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harim April 19 2010, 22:04:16 UTC

um. the postal service sings that song.

neurotika April 19 2010, 22:17:23 UTC

NO REALLY.
That was an Autofill error :P
And - THAT'S the only thing you can say to this entire entry?

harim April 23 2010, 16:15:58 UTC

haha i knew you would say something about that.

stop being a virgo, and i mean that in a loving way of course.

you make fantastic life decisions! youre friends with me right?

laurel_sea April 21 2010, 02:39:43 UTC

I definitely understand how you feel about campus in ways. So much of it had to do with the people there at the time. It seems kind of like a twist on the issue when going home after college and realizing that you've changed, while the family folk have remained the same. The buildings kind of remained the same, the people sort of changed, and something about the overarching spirit of the place balances on the tipping point between familiar and strange. Time is an interesting thing.

__until_sundown April 26 2010, 18:10:36 UTC

thank you for that link. being that i was fairly certain i was having a nervous breakdown/mid-life crisis last week, questioning everything that has occurred in the past 6 years, i really needed to read something like that.

i often questioned if i did the right thing by leaving my first college (suny cortland) and transferring to brooklyn college. who knows. i want to say yes, but i look back on that first year nostalgically and so its hard for me to be confident and say that i made the right choice.

again, i'll never know, and i just have to accept that.

quasiquirky April 27 2010, 02:04:17 UTC

that link is exactly what i needed to read right now. thank you for always being the articulate, sensitive, and intelligent friend i was so lucky to have made so many years ago. that's one life decision i never question. :)

llamalot444 April 27 2010, 23:28:10 UTC

I'm not really sure what you're up to in post-Vassar life, but over here in my post-grad experiences (in San Francisco) I sometimes feel like I'm drowning in sex-positive dialogue. I work in Public Health research, but I also volunteer once a week as an HIV test counselor. Both positions involve a lot of trainings and a lot of sex-positive discussions. If you're interested, it might be worthwhile to look into trainings for HIV test counselors (or something similar) in your area. Once you've gone through a certification course, there are paid and volunteer opportunities available. Just a thought...