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Reality shows
I'm watching these reality shows and am blown away by the contestants' ages. I see what I view/perceive as an adult - a fully grown, older individual - and they're my age, or a year younger, or a few years older. I don't feel like I look like that. I certainly don't feel like an adult. But I'm starting to realize that's what the world sees when ( Read more... ) -
On rereading Hannibal and gaining back weight
There is a place inside me, deep, deep down, under layers of cognizance, experience, and self-righteousness where there remains a dark visceral admiration for and envy of psychopaths and anorexics. In different yet basically similar ways - control over others and control over the self ( Read more... ) -
Intensive purposes
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6ObrFwjesno
And honestly, I think this applies to any kind of relationship, romantic or otherwise. No one represents the perfect ideal of interaction. But some people come closer than others because we overlook what bugs the fuck out of us and/or realize most of those irritants don't *really* matter as much as ( Read more... ) -
Lovely Bones
There will be a time when all of this has changed. When my memories are the only things that give life to this time, when the actual substance of houses, streets, existence will have crumbled and decayed. When this moment, this living, vibrating, expanded moment will be viewed through a long tunnel, will be encapsulated and contained in a black ( Read more... ) -
I am a vistor here; I am not permanent.
Was back at Vassar this weekend for a Squirm 10th anniversary conference/reunion/networking thing. Being on campus again was...surreal, to say the least. It's been long enough that I comprehend I'm not supposed to be there, but not long enough that it feels foreign...so I had this weird "I'm here but I'm not really here" dissonance the whole time. ( Read more... ) -
So.
Victor just told me I was his first love. That's...always nice to hear via text message 6 - 7 years later. -
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Sometimes, human connection - knowing there are all these strings spiraling out from me, all these lives I've touched, how enmeshed I am (chronologically, without weight given to significance/intimacy/reciprocity) with other people - weighs on me ( Read more... ) -
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What's the use of all of this?
It's to remember you in the entire as I'm watching it slip away. -
Way better use of my time than rewriting my grad app essay
Year in review meme:
Post the first sentence for each month of this year as it was originally posted in your lj.
( Jeeesus...I didn't fully realize how obnoxious I apparently was this year. Sorry, all. )
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