On Getting Better

[nervy_girl]

Comments

[wolfdaughter]

I love your breakthroughs. :) Wishing you many clickable moments!

"Settling" and other confusions

[devifemme]

My goodness, this intensely felt view of your rare type of friendship is SO well done, SO meaning-filled. Well, I'm excited to read someone being realistic about the all-too-evident limits of her lifestyle

[pennfana]

I'm glad you managed this breakthrough. You're right, it'll un-click and then click again on occasion, but there'll gradually be longer and longer times in which it has clicked and will stay that way. Now that you've experienced life without that ache, it'll get easier not to feel it. But be patient with yourself in the times when you do feel it again; this is something that you've felt very strongly for a long time, and because your emotions do tend to run very deep, you'll get echoes of it, often when you least expect them. In moments like that, it may help to acknowledge it and then use up the energy it generates in some way. (When a feeling like that hits me, I usually play something really loud and fast on the fiddle, and when I've tired myself out, I feel significantly better.)

By the way, merely feeling things is not a violation of any kind. Acting on them when it isn't appropriate is, and you wouldn't actually do that. The truth, as pure and simple as it can be, is that you love him very much, and he cares very deeply