No good answers.

[nehmet]

I have no idea what to say or what to write or even what to do at the moment. I'm rather depressive, though not necessarily for the reasons you might expect. I feel imbalanced, badly so, the rational side of me having taken over to the point where I question whether I believe in much of anything at all. I look around, I see and hear the tales that

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[jessidora]

Is every single one of them either lying or delusional? Is that even possible? And if not, then does that mean there's something desperately wrong with me that renders me incapable of having those same experiences? I don't even have any spiffy analogies cooked up at the moment; just this gnawing discontent, and a sense of hopelessness and futility. Why do I bother?
I hate to say this, but I came at these situations very naive because I have those "experiences" and it never occurred to me that people would flat out lie. Why would you meed to

[nehmet]

I agree with you wholeheartedly, of course, and most days I'm perfectly content; but on occasion, something inside me skews the wrong way and I find myself thinking--well, you read my original post, so you see how I was thinking. It'll reset itself eventually, and life will proceed as normal.

It helps to know that others have had to work through this as well, and have reached similar conclusions. If only I didn't need periodic reminders!

[dncingmalkavian]

Yeah. I know how you feel. But as you say, this too shall pass.

Feel better, crazy awesome lady. It makes me feel strange to see you be sad.

[nehmet]

:)

[kefet_vamp]

*huggles* This has happened to me a bit in the past. I just remind myself of some my spiritual siblings who've come to have a positive impact on me (like you ^__^) and I feel a bit better

[lowenmensch]

What Seven4Sirius said. I'm reminded of a Deo's Shadow podcast called "When to call Bullshit." Not that everyone is making stuff up or delusional, but sometimes, there's a bit of embellishment, Especially when everyone else's claims sound so kewl. Anyways, here's the link:

http://sd-10807.dedibox.fr/show_items-feed=620f7cfb92a148a83551e04eec63397a?page=1

"I was doing black magic at age 5. I get possessed all the time." Deo and Mandy talk about the wild claims made by some Pagans and ask When can we call bullshit?"

[2keepbreathing]

No clue how many people are lying/delusional, but I can tell you that there is nothing wrong with you. I get the whole "why do I bother" feelings sometimes and it's incredibly discouraging. It passes though, and in my experience, you'll find what is and isn't consistent enough to trust in. It's like the madness within the scientific method-you can try & test things over and over, but there are infinite variables for which you have to account. The experiments never really end.

Like the episode of Bones where the night security guard told Brennan about the experiment where test subjects were required to where glasses that caused everything to look like it was upside down. After a certain period of time, their brains adjusted to seeing the world upside down and everything looked normal. Then when they were allowed to take the glasses off, it took a while before the test subjects could tell which way was up. But eventually, their vision returned to normal.

[nehmet]

You used a Bones analogy and science to console me, which was the perfect combination. And I thought I couldn't love you more!

[2keepbreathing]

:D