It's been a long, long, long, long time...

[neevebrody]

Beatles' songs make the best/worst earworms... Really. But it has been a while since I've felt up to posting - since I've felt up to doing anything of note, actually. The tl;dr version is this: I was sick and depressed, I fought both, and I am much better now. Not just 'feel' better - I AM better and I hope to keep it that way

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[sgamadison]

Huh, the cover didn't come up when I clicked the link, but when I opened the comment box here, I can see it now!

Oh man, that's awesome---I love the math and how it seems to be pointing at each of the images--plus the faded 'ghost' images behind the title are just grin-making!

I'm sorry you've been having such a rough time of it for so long. It seems like this past autumn/winter has been really tough on almost everyone I know, and depression has been a big factor for everyone. You have to wonder if the cold and dark days aren't a player in why is it hard for people in chronic pain to get better sooner. I'm relieved to hear that things are turning around for you at last.

Haven't decided myself what to do about MM this year. Time, as always, is the problem.

[neevebrody]

Well, a young Hewlett is always so hard to resist! Thanks - glad you like the cover. It was a lot of work especially since some of the images were stock and I had to take out the watermarkings.

The pain-depression-pain cycle has been explained to me as another of those things that I will just have to "learn to live with," but I don't seem to be taking too kindly to that. I've come a long way (back) through acupuncture and therapeutic massage (thinking of trying some myofacial release therapy) that I know I can gain a measure of control over this condition. The brain has a lot to do with that, which is why it's so important to fight the depression. Anyway, I'm in there sluggin'.

I'm not sure which way to go with MM either. I'd love to write again, but I may only have the time for art. We shall see.

[sgamadison]

Will email you. I can't remember if I've sent you a link for something that I found very helpful. ;-)

[xxsafixx]

hey there!
I am sorry to hear that you had tough times recently but it's great you're better now:)

Welcome back ♥

[neevebrody]

Thank you, sweetie. It's good to be here!

[zoemathemata]

hugs you.
I suffer from clinical depression myself [been on meds for about 12 years - will always be on meds] and I applaud anyone who struggles with depression and makes it through!

It's like climbing out of a steep, muddy hole - hard work and tiring. GOOD FOR YOU. I'm glad you're better!

[neevebrody]

Thanks, hon. I think I was well into January before I started to become afraid of how serious the depression was - no harmful ideations, just a feeling of being so deep in that hole that I might not be 'able' to climb out. The worst was a loss of enjoyment for the things I'd been so keen on before, and I don't mean just fanish things.

The time change into DST made a world of difference, along with some warmer or more moderate weather. We had a gloomy, dark, damp winter and the sunshine was like being hooked to an IV of hope (albeit on a slow drip ;) But things are looking up and I'm confident I can stay on this upper level without falling back... and that I'll eventually get out of the hole altogether.

Thank you for your warm thoughts. *hugs back*

[rusty_armour]

This is kind of spooky as I just posted about depression myself. *g* I'm so glad you're feeling better, neevebrody. I really hope you stay that way. I found writing very therapeutic when I was struggling with my own demons, so I hope a bit of creativity helps you. I LOVE your cover for Times Two. I haven't read it, but your beautiful artwork has given me all the incentive I need. :-D

I hope you continue to feel better and your Muse will become a regular visitor again.

[neevebrody]

Thank you, sweetie! And I'm gad you like the cover - you'll love the story as well.

The Muse has been hanging around some - she still hasn't given me any sharp pencils or paper, but I think that's coming soon. I've often heard that depression puts you into another frame of mind where some find a well of creativity. If I had had the strength and ability to get the words down, I would have written some very dark things... it wasn't as if the sparks weren't there, it was just that I had no desire to memorialize them in any way. But now that things are a bit sunnier, I'm hoping that will change.

*hugs*

[patk]

Oh, that cover is great work and re-reading the story showed that I still like it as much as I did the first time around. :-)

This might be something that could interest you:

http://lunabee34.livejournal.com/374411.html

I'm glad to hear that you're better. :-)

[neevebrody]

Thank you, dear. I'm glad you like the cover. Mischief's story is definitely one that can be read over and over again.

I have seen lunabee's post, but work has kept me from really getting in to find some inspiration. I'm taking a few days off beginning today, so perhaps I will have more time.

Thanks again! *hugs*