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[nconley]

I'm very tired of feeling helpless against my bipolar disorder... feeling like I have no control over my daily actions... and always having to provide damage control in the aftermath of an episode. I've been attending an intensive outpatient program for the last three weeks and I graduated on Thursday, however; I don't feel like I was ready. I

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[anonymous]

I know you feel like you're going nowhere and are not getting better, but you are. You've started realizing that your illness is causing your feelings and not your life or the others around you. I love you so much. More than anything in this world. Since I met you more than 10 years ago you've influenced and improved my life in more ways than I could ever explain. We go through tough times, just like any couple, and yes, it is very hard for me sometimes to deal with what comes up, but I'll never give up on you. You are a great, smart, intelligent, and interesting person and I've always loved your personality and dedication to whatever you do. You'll get through this and everything else, and I'll be right there with you forever.

Thinking of you,

Alex

[nconley]

I wish I shared your sense of hope and optimism. I feel so drained and flat... I wish I could see the light at the end of the tunnel, but I can't. I don't even feel human anymore and I'm having a hard time pulling myself through this mess. I haven't been very good to you, so I don't deserve you telling me how great I am... I feel like the scum of the earth and I'm sorry for everything I've done to you. I hope you know that I've loved you every day for the last 10 years of my life and nothing else has felt remotely close to what I feel when I'm with you. Even though I feel like you don't understand me sometimes, I know that you care and that means a lot to me. I love you.