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I'm very tired of feeling helpless against my bipolar disorder... feeling like I have no control over my daily actions... and always having to provide damage control in the aftermath of an episode. I've been attending an intensive outpatient program for the last three weeks and I graduated on Thursday, however; I don't feel like I was ready. I backslid recently, even cut up my arms because of the emotional pain I felt inside... I haven't done that since I was in high school. Bipolar disorder is very much in control of my daily life and it needs to stop. I'm ready to take charge of MY life and not let some disability rule me. I've lost interest in the things I used to hold dear... my clarinet, scrap booking, and art. I'm planning on adding these things slowly back into my life. My life needs a general overhaul.. it will be a very long road, but I will make it... I have hope.