Better?
So, Alex and I went to my psychiatrist appointment yesterday to discuss my medication and make any necessary changes... Dr. Verberg asked me if I thought I was doing any better and I said that I wasn't sure. Alex said he noticed improvements and that I seemed to be more willing to incorporate social behaviors into my life more than a couple of weeks ago. I sort of feel like I'm doing that to make others feel better about how I'm doing, more so than being social because I really want to... does that make sense? I'm feeling really anxious about going back to work on monday.. almost to the point that I feel like I'm going to have a panic attack or something. I've never felt like this before. I just wish I had a clear idea of how to get myself out of this, but I know that's impossible. I'm just... hanging in there.