Why did I have to wake up...

[naytally]

I hate waking up, having those first few seconds of ignorant bliss, then realizing the events of the previous day... I'm shaking and having yet another panic attack... and crying. I don't know if I can do this. I am so glad I am off work for the next two days. I am sorry I have not replied to anyone as of yet, but thank all of you for the support

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[morganskye]

I remember that feeling. :( *hugs*

[norwegianeyes]

here are some random gifs for support and laughter...

[naytally]

the dog with the shovel was wonderful...

[maideleh]

::snuggle:: You can do this. Of course you can. It's hard, yes, but not impossible. <3

[naytally]

He's already packing my shit... "I was bored and wanted something to organize... so some stuff is already packed" OMFG I don't know how to handle this... I was already having a panic attack. The fact that he's already packing my stuff is making me freak the fuck out.

[maideleh]

Calm down, sweetie. You handle it by staying calm, packing your own things, and making arrangements. You should leave today, to minimize drama. Friends\family\hotel room. Get out of there and find something short-term so you can start planning for long-term.

[naytally]

I so can't do that... I just want to be home and pretend like things are normal... I keep realizing the things/plans that I had for my life that are not going to come from this... like we were supposed to have a child and his name would be alexander, and buy a house... and fucking get married on 3.14. I wish I could take this ball of anxiety out of my chest and hurl it at someone or something.