Hold my head inside your hands
I need someone who understands
I need someone, someone who hears
For you, I've waited all these years

For you I'd wait 'til kingdom come
Until my day, my day is done
And say you'll come and set me free
Just say you'll wait, you'll wait for me

You cut me down to size
And opened up my eyes
Made me realize
What I could not see

And I could write a book
The one they'll say that shook
The world, and then it took
It took it back from me

And I could write it down
Or spread it all around
Get lost and then get found
And you'll come back to me
Not swallowed in the sea
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"the smell of him on my sheets haunted me for the rest of the night.
he left but i wasn't alone. 
the right decision had been made.
we had achieved the perfect paradox. purely unexplainable.
words would serve no purpose in a futile attempt of description.

i'm no longer haunted by the left unsaid.
and i am finally at peace."

i will sing of your mercy that leads me through valleys of sorrow to rivers of joy.

"Brothers and sisters, whenever trouble comes your way, let it be an opportunity for joy. For when your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to grow. So let it grow, for when your endurance is fully developed, you will be strong in character and ready for anything."
James 1:2-4

i've lost control
only to realize it was never mine in the first place

i need to stop thinking that i can fix things on my own
that i can change these things by myself

i've gotten so consumed in the selfish midset & i'm having trouble breaking free.

i have a reason to change
i have a reason to change

but i still can't do it.

i'm like a driver who doesn't ( Read more... )

Stop this train
I want to get off
And go home again
I can't take the speed it's moving in
I know I can't
But honestly, won't someone stop this train?

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"Now repentance is no fun at all. It is something much harder than merely eating humble pie. It means unlearning all the self-conceit and self-will that we have been training ourselves into for thousands of years. It means killing part of yourself, undergoing a kind of death. In fact, it needs a good man to repent. And here comes the catch. Only a ( Read more... )

Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already been made perfect, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for ( Read more... )

i was really caught off guard when i read this in my devotions the other night. i've been so consumed with the hustle and bustle of school, and applying to the education department, declaring my major, deciding if i want a minor, that i have once again let my focus slip through the cracks.

"wake yourself up and look to God. Build your hope on Him. ( Read more... )