As I Lay Dying - Masterpost
Author: namichan89
Artist: smallworld_inc
Beta: vennstiel
Fandom/Genre: Supernatural RPS
Pairing(s): Jensen/Jared, est. Misha/Vicky
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: 35,000
Warnings: Trigger warning: This story is bloody, depressing and violent. It deals with suicide and heavy substance abuse (alcohol, meds). Mentions of murders, rapes, hate crimes and dark themes in general. No main character death.
Summary: Blessed and cursed with a gift that makes him see past events tied to the objects he touches, Jensen is a single man in his mid-thirties who is exposed to the worst side of humanity every day. He only sees murders, rapes and suicides everywhere he goes, every day, without being able to do anything about it. His coping mechanism is taking too much pills and drinking a lot of alcohol. Over the course of decades, it has torn him apart to the point of considering suicide on a daily basis.
That is until he has a very special vision of a young man being stabbed in the subway and said man turning towards him, begging Jensen to help him even though Jensen isn't even supposed to be there. Jensen knows he has to find him - with a little help from his friend Misha, an NYPD officer.
Written for the spn_reversebang 2012.
Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3 | Part 4 | Part 5 | Epilogue
AO3 | PDF
Art Masterpost by smallworld_inc
Author's note:
I think I never did more research for a fic than I did for this one. As a matter of fact, I've never been to New York, so I didn't know the subway system or Manhattan or Central Park or the Upper East Side, which led to a lot of poring over Google Street View and Wikipedia. And now I want to go to New York. I also started reading the New York Times website and I'm pretty sure I could find my way through the subway by now.
And if someone would track my searches on Google, they might also think I'm a borderline psycho, or how else should I explain searching for a stabbing injury that would be bloody but not deadly.
That being said, smallworld_inc's prompt was very inspiring and I had a lot of fun writing this - especially because of the honor to work with her again.
Special thanks to:
vennstiel: My dear friend, my beta for life and my very own soulmate. Once again, what would I have done without you! Thanks for clearing your tight schedule to help me out and inspire me some more. Thanks for checking over all the things I still had wrong despite all the research I did. Without you, this story would've never ended up like it is right now, and I'm grateful for your totally necessary nitpicking. Also, you're awesome and I love you :)
smallworld_inc: As fate would have it, I had the honor to work with one of the most talented and awesome artists in the whole Supernatural fandom - twice. After "Despicable Misha", our first project this year, written for the deancasbigbang, we ended up on the same team again - thank god! How could I not make this incredible prompt into a 35,000 words story, considering the gorgeous art you provided me with? How could I not write a story we completely agreed on in detail from day one, almost to a creepy extent? I love you, girl, and I would love to work with you again (which, in hindsight, I already did. *wink* *wink* *nudge* *nudge*).