I lie awake; Because I'm scared

[n0onz]

Its 6am. Not a wink of sleep. Lying in bed, staring at the ceiling. Just thinking. Calculating. Weighing out my options. Why though? Is it because I’m scared? I think it is. There is no way around this. No way. I could always just forget about it all. I mean, that’s what I do best. Forget. But it’s different for some reason. I don’t want to forget

Comments

[lover_of_anime]

For what it's worth, I will never judge you. And keeping the wonder of the child, and other aspects of it. . .Is not aside of possibility. Most adults are just childrenic adults any ways. . .

Our society has a certain notion of what an adult and a child is supposed to be like. These notions remain as notions, and are completely mutable.

I don't think it is anyone's place but yourself to tell you how to live and be. Everything else is advice that moves the process of your growth along.

You should live how you see fit. As far as the guy you're interested in. . .I wouldn't worry about it so much. There's 6 billion + people on this Earth. There are other people out there for you.

Don't be afraid

[sas_spidey01]

Sounds like you're probably in the worst boat anyone can find their heart stuck in.

I think most people look back upon being a kid as something special, but nothing stops the ebb and flow of time. Memories good and bad alike have their value, it helps ground our minds in a decent place; where we've been, who we've known, things we've done, a lot like a journal really ;-). In my personal experience, it's not good to dwell on a memory for to long. The beginning of strength is learning how to keep marching over broken ground. Whatever things look like, life has a funny way of changing, whether it takes 20 seconds or 20 years. (In my parents case, it took both... lol).

Remember the first rule of life, is survival!

[ducky_ny]

Ok, so I have been there, but why is it that you can't say it to HIM? Why not take the chance? Do you just like admiring him from afar? Isn't life too short to wish and wish and not DO. What is so unreachable about a man? Really? It is a wonderful thing to be young, but it is not so bad being older either. No more of the pining for just a sweet dat to day with the one that didn't get away. It's all good in its time.

Trish

[crest_fall]

and why won't you be?

[_flames_]

Sometimes it's worth taking a chance. You sound like I did a long while back. It's difficult to overcome a friendship that could be affected but I think that if you don't tell him how you feel you'll never know what could have been.